Not much to say

Not too much to say...I think I had a panic attack the other day - a minor one and I kind of recognized it. My heart started racing for no reason. I think I have been so stressed and nervous about Joey starting School (rightly so if you read the babies blog) that I was just overwhelmed. I am ok now -

Work is crazy - same as usual. Got a little annoyed at my boss the other day which is unusual for me - but I got over it - and I think he knew I was annoyed so he will be nice to me on Saturday when I go back to work.

I took off yesterday, today and tomorrow for Joey's first week of school - it makes me realize how much I wish I stayed at home. Don't get me wrong - I really like my job but sometimes I wish I could just stay home all day and have that be my full time occupation. I feel like I am playing catch-up all the time - catch up at home, catch-up at work - We were all so tired yesterday from the excitement - Joey fell asleep at 6:00pm, the babies were asleep by 7:00 and I was in bed by 9:00pm - my husband came home from work at 10 and the house was dark!

Since I don't have too much to say, I am going to copy my friend Jamie, and post some things I have learned....

I have learned that baby wipes take out almost any stain.

I have learned that a mother's guilt is the most powerful thing in the world.

I have learned that you can love more than one baby with you whole heart.

I have learned that you can't love more than one man that way.

I have learned that regretting the past won't make the present better.

I have learned that it is hard to remember that.

I have learned that you can never meet a person face to face and be as close as sisters.

I have learned that, despite what I believed growing up, I have one of the best families in the world.

I have learned that not all brothers and sisters love each-other like mine.

I have learned that fear can paralyze you.

I have learned that I am old fashioned after all.

I have learned that Dunkachinos are fattening - and

I have learned that I don't give a shit.

I have learned that no matter how miserable you are when you are pregnant...you still miss being pregnant.

I have learned that regardless of the number of children I may have - I will still wonder what the one I lost is like.

I have learned that things probably do happen for a reason but that knowledge doesn't make it easier to take.

I have learned that I miss my Grandmother.

I have learned that I don't like cheap wine.

I have learned that I am smart and self sufficient but sometimes I can get tired of being the reliable one.

I have learned that I am a jealous person.

I have learned that TV really is a good thing.

I have learned that bribery works.

I have learned that the Library will report your failure to return 4 books to the credit bureau.

I have learned that taking the first step is hard and taking the second is sometimes harder.

I have learned that macaroni salad, if not cleaned up properly, will stain a carpet forever.

I have learned that I like being in charge.


OK - enough for now - Hope everyone is doing well.

Jenn