So for those of you that read and aren't also members of PW (which there are all of none of you) - click the link for my update.

My Sonogram and Doctor Appointment Update


Basically, I am just taking it easy. Trying to eat right and relax - that is it. I am a little nervous that there are issues already at 5 weeks but I am trying to be optimistic. My levels were really good and they decreased my progesterone so that is a good sign. Right? Isn't it??

Maybe it was irresponsible of us to go ahead with the IUI when I had so many follicles but I believed in my heart that this was our last shot - I knew I would get pregnant this time around so we moved forward anyway. I hope that I just didn't set myself up for a huge disappointment.

Well, that is it really - everything is status quo. I don't really feel sick today just tired.

I also can happily report that - like my pregnancy with Joey - I have no real desire for junk food - it is amazing how our body works - it automatically knows what it needs. I have had a bagel with a little bit of cream cheese, chocolate milk (I can't stand regular milk), and a decaf coffee for breakfast. For lunch I had a salad and a slice of whole wheat bread - and I just snacked on potatoes and carrots that I stole from the pot roast that is cooking. With my son Joe - I just wanted Meals - I hardly ate any junk - I just didn't want it - Hopefully this trend will continue.

Hope everyone is doing well. Chas - I hope your appointment goes well today!

I FEEL SICK!

Hello everyone

First I want to say Thanks to everyone who have been so supportive - especially my IPP gals!!!

Do you like my license plate? Thanks Ally!

Well, not much to tell on the how I am feeling front - I am tired - I usually take a small nap everyday (when possible) and if not then I go to sleep early.

Not much else to speak of -which I KNOW I am only 4 weeks and 4 days - but makes me a little nervous.....I wish I wrote down exactly when I started feeling symptoms with Joey so I wouldn't be so paranoid!

I am so anxious for my sonogram Thursday, even though I know they will only be able to see the sac and not the actual baby! It took everything I had not to change the appointment to today!!!

I hope everyone is doing good!!!

Update

Well, I am officially pregnant - Thank the good Lord!

I go for my sonogram on Thursday - I had the choice of Tuesday or Thursday but I wanted to give the bean a little more time to grow (I know - two days isn't a long time).

Symptoms:
My boobs are a little sore.
I am really tired.
And get this - I can't Poop!!! I know, I know, Too much information but my belly looks like I am 5 months pregnant instead of 4 weeks!!! Any helpful hints would be appreciated!

I have told only a few people so far:

1. My best friend Kim.
2. Her boyfriend and our assistant Peter.
3. All the IPP
4. PW
5. My friend Sue - and get this - she is pregnant too - I am doing the very beginning of March and she is due mid February! We will be going to the same hospital as well - wouldn't that be something if we end up in the hospital together!!!


I am a little nervous about how the pregnancy will progress but I guess that is normal considering my history. I am trying to do everything right - cutting out 95% of the caffeine - taking my vitamin - eating right - it is all I can really do. I don't know if I will ever really relax completely but I am making sure that I enjoy this pregnancy for every second I have it.

My husband is spoiling me - so that is a definate perk!!!!

I will definately be waiting until I hit the 8 week mark before I tell anyone - and I will try to wait until after the first trimester if that is possible, so you will all have to put up with my ramblings about it here.

I am so happy that the IPP is finally getting the pregnancies we deserve - Ally, Lesley, Jaime & Jess - within the next two months all four of you will be pregnant - we are going to be the big fat Pregnant IPPs!!!!

Jenna you are being so good to your friend's babies - you are just setting up there mom's to spoil yours!!! Hope you are doing ok!


Hope everyone is doing well - Heather & Chas - give us an update!

Talk to everyone soon!!!

THE TICKER STAYS!!!!!!!

starting to get a little discouraged

Well, I am not feeling any real symptoms today - and my husband and Ally both believe I am not pregnant - probably because I have always had some type of symptom by now. I am holding out hope because both Heather and Chastity have said that they are not feeling any symptoms and we know that they are good and pregnant.

I was speaking with Ally and she thinks that I should give the IUI with injectibles another two tries - but I really have no desire to go through this again for next two months - I know it can be considered giving up - and I know that most people have been through way more than me for way longer than me - but I am just tired of the whole process now.

I am tired today - my son had a bad night last night - nightmares - so I am hoping he will let me take a nap when I get home! Thankfully, today is my short day!

Well, that is really it - Father's day was uneventful - I will update again after I take my test on Wednesday.

Have a good one everybody!

So How am i feeling?

Unfortunately, no real symptoms to speak of...my boobs still hurt but they have been hurting since before I ovulated b/c of the gonal f.

I am tired - but it is because I haven't been sleeping too well.

My stomach was really really tender for a few days and my doc said that if it gets worse (which it isn't - it is actually getting better) or if I develop any other symptoms, then I need to call him b/c I could have ovarian hyperstimulation - I did have 9 follicles after all.

No nausea or anything - but I really didn't have that for my other two pregnancies either. It is still really early to feel real symptoms yet. I am waiting for the exhaustion to set in - that with my boobs hurting was always my first clue - even before AF was due.

I have been cramping but that is from the progesterone - I had to go for blood yesterday for a progesterone check and they said it was borderline - 11.5 - my doc likes the level to be up around 15 - so guess what? They doubled my dose. I have to shove that stuff up my cooch 4 times a day now - I actually had to bring some to work with me because I have to do it here - Thank God this is a small office and they all know what I have been going through.

I have enough suppositories to last me until next Saturday - by then I will know if it is positive or negative and whether or not I will need to get a refill - what a pain in the ass.

Other than that - just getting ready for Father's day - my son and I are making cupcakes tonight for my husband (he already got his power washer yesterday) and a picture for Joe's Dad from the baby. We are having a bar-b-que at Joe's sisters' house tomorrow to celebrate with his dad.

I gave my dad 4 tickets to Sunday's yankee game - my boss had 4 extra - lol - I am buying the train tickets and the metro card for him - Happy Father's Day!

What is everyone else doing?

I hope everyone is doing well - I have to catch up on the blogs - so I will comment on everyone's soon - sorry I am such a slacker!

Now As per Ally's Request....

As you can see, and as ordered by Ally, I have again posted a ticker this month. I even got really ballsy and posted it with twin babies - How is that for OPTIMISTIC?????

Now, let's pray that I don't need to take the ticker down - lots of prayers - I am getting really hopeful this month and it is scaring the crap out of me!

Have a good day ladies!

Phantom Symptoms

OK - so here we go - 4dpIUI and already the analysis begins! I am so pathetic!!!

Well, my boobs are killing me - but I know it is from the Gonal-F and not from a potential pregnancy since:
1. If I was pregnant, implantation most likely hasn't even taken place yet!
2. My boobs were killing me before I even ovulated - so give it up Jenn!


The only other thing I am feeling right now is VERY VERY bloated and tender in my lower abdomen - it almost feels like - and again, skip over this part if you gross out easily - like huge gas pains in my stomach - like if I just could let a really big one go then I would be fine!!!!!

So that is it for me - still continuing on the Progesterone twice a day (Gross)!

I go for a Progesterone Check on Friday and then the Blood Pregnancy Test the following Friday. I think I will be taking a FRED on the 22nd - so that means only 8 more days to go!

Hope everyone is doing well!

As per Jess' request....

OK - sorry I have not updated - alot going on lately.

So here is my update....I went to the doc on Thursday and I had NINE follicles sized 13-18mm. Since I had so many my doctor told me that I should consider canceling the cycle since I have a 15-20% chance of having 3 or more with so many follicles!

I went home and talked it over with my husband, who promptly told me "We have come this far, and after everything you have been through, we are not canceling this cycle - we said this was it - let's do it!"

Me: "uh ok, if you are sure - because if I have a 15-20% chance of 3 or more then the chance of twins has to be around 40-50% (although I didn't ask my doc about this)"

Joe: "So, if we have 3 or 4 then we just go bankrupt - no big deal!!"

Me: "OK then - let's do this"

- I called my doctor and Joe gave me the Ovidrel trigger shot at 10:30am.

First IUI was on Friday - it had been awhile since Joe and I had danced - the day of the IUI is supposed to be from 2-7 days since his last "release".

Well, I kind of lied (no kind of about it - I lied). It had been 8 days, but I put that it was only 7 - I figured with 9 follicles it would have been ok.

Wouldn't you know it - Joe had (ok alert - going to be VERY CRUDE HERE)

(LAST CHANCE -HERE IT COMES)

(OK - Don't say I didn't warn you!)

Joe had a banner fucking load that morning apparently, because all of his levels were way above average. That first IUI they injected 18.6 MILLION sperm into me!!!! HOLY SHIT! Even the doctor said "This is a very good specimin!" So when I have 9 follicles is when Joe decides to step up to the plate !

2nd IUI was on Saturday - the specimin was back down to just average (since he had the 4th of July the day before) and there was only 6.2million on Saturday. So in total, I have had 24.8 million sperm inside me looking for 9 eggs! Basically - if I am not pregnant this month, then I am never getting pregnant!

Now I am going to tell you something that probably reflects bad on me - but Hey we are all honest here in blogland!

Since I had so many follicles, I felt so full for about 3 days - it feels like you have a bunch of really big gas bubbles in your abdomen (sp?) and it is kind of crampy.

So the day of the first IUI, he said "you are going to feel some pressure from the speculum"

He inserted the speculum and I was like (not out loud) "Hey, that doesn't feel so bad - it kind of relieves the pressure!" Of course, I didn't tell my doctor that - he would have looked at me like a freak - and on Saturday it went back to being totally uncomfortable - but hey - want to give you the whole experience.

SO....I started progesterone yesterday, I will go for a check at the end of this week, and a blood test around the 23rd or 24th - I will probably take a FRED on the 22nd - so we are just 9 short days away from the results!



As a side note....what the fuck is up with PW????? What a pain in the ass! Have a good one everybody!

cd9 update

went to doc this morning....I have a 13mm and an 11mm on the left side and an 11mm on the right - in addition to alot of small follicles - which is because of the PCOS.

I take two more nights of the 150iu and then go back for sonogram on Wednesday to see if it is time for the shot - If I get the shot on Wednesday, then IUI will be on Thursday and Friday - so I will know if it worked by the 24th of June.

I am so tired of this process...I just can't wait for it to be over - for good or bad - I hope everyone is doing well.

Bye

And now....for an update on my follicles

How sad is this....my life so revolves around trying to conceive that the only thing I have to write about is the status of my follicles - could I be any more pathetic?????

So - here is the update.....

I have 3 growing on the left...two are measuring at 9mm and one is at 8mm. I only have one growing well on the right - and she is at 8mm. So we shall see what happens.

I continue at the 150iu tonight and tomorrow and then I go for another sono and blood work on Monday morning. I am so tired....I never get to sleep anymore!!!!

Hopefully this cycle will be coming to a close soon - I will be on cd9 on Monday - I am not sure if that is too early for the shot.....or for them to grow significantly.....I only have enough gonal-f for tonight and tomorrow anyway - so hopefully I don't need to get another script!

well - that is my update - I am leaving work in a few minutes - I have been so busy all day - but really - when am I not busy - I need to hit the Lotto.........Bad!

Have a good one everyone!

Upping my dose

Well, doc just called - they increased my gonal-f dose from 75 to 150 - I have to go back for a sonogram on Saturday!

I hope this does the trick and I have big fat follicles on Saturday - I will only be on cd7 so I am not really sure how that works - if I could get the hcg shot so early. At the 150 level, I will only have enough meds to last me two more days (Saturday and Sunday Night) and then I will be out of the gonal - so many things to think about.

Just think....this time in 3 weeks I will be pregnant! How is that for optimism??????

Hope all is well in blogland - I will try to comment on everyone tonight!

Up and Down Day

What an up and down day. Today is Jennie's little boy's funeral....what a horrible thing to have to go through. I can't even imagine how she feels and my thoughts and prayers go out to her.

Chas got her long awaited BFP!!! What exciting news that is....I had such a feeling that she was pg.....but us in the IPP hate giving out false hope so we try to hold back! I pray that she has a long uneventful pregnancy! Way to go Chas!!!

I am still very excited for Heather as well - I can't wait to find out how many beans she has cooking in there!

I hope that Chas and Heather have started an IPP trend!

I started my shots two days ago - the first shot didn't go super smooth - some blood ended up in the vile of meds but my doc said that I could still use it. Last night's shot went much smoother - my husband sure has the hang of it....I think he enjoys sticking me with all the grief I have been giving him since being on the hormones!

I go for my first U/S tomorrow to see how the Gonal-f is working and if I need to increase the dosage. I really hope this medication works - I am praying that 3rd time is a charm....let's keep the IPP pg ball rolling!!!!

I can't wait for Ally to sell her house so I can beat her ass out of her pessimistic streak she has going on!

I finally chatted with Lesley last night (conference with Ally) - it was so good to finally talk to her - it has been so long!!!

My son's allergies were acting up - my husband doesn't believe me that he has allergies - but when cold/cough medicine doesn't stop his cough but Claritan does - um what does that tell you???

God, I am so tired!! Does Gonal-f make you tired???? I feel like I am going to fall asleep at the keyboard!

I hope everyone is doing well - Jamie - I am praying that the damn cyst is gone at your next appointment!

Have a good one everybody!