Hello everyone! I am not going to even apologize for being a slacker - you all know I am and hopefully you all forgive me for it.
So...what has been going on - abso fucking lutely nothing.
I am getting Joey ready for school - which starts on Wednesday. I have finally gotten him on a really good schedule - he is in bed sleeping every night by 8:30. That is a major feat because my kid definately is a night person.
I have adjusted my work schedule starting the week of the 11th. I will be working 4 days from 9:30 to 3:00 - that way I can get Joey on the bus and get him off - it will almost be like he has a stay at home mom - imagine that. I will still have to work Saturdays but it should be ok - my only concern is that it cuts a day out of my time with the babies - which still seems so limited. I will see how it works out.
I had dinner at my boss' house the other night - I got totally tanked on red wine - I don't know what kind it was - all I know is it was good!!!! LOL
September 11th is coming up - I can't believe it will already be 5 years since that day. This will be the first year since it happened that I will be working - I usually take the day off. Thank God that I didn't know anyone that was killed that day but for some reason it totally shook me to the core.
I was born in a generation that really hasn't had to deal with too many dramas. The terrorist attacks that took place in the 70's - I really don't recall since I was so young. The only war we ever had to deal with was the Gulf War and that was over in a matter of minutes - I think my generation before 9/11 had the sense that we were untouchable and that all changed on that day. The realization that people (and I know this sounds so naive) REALLY hated us. What sticks out in my mind is how people in other countries were dancing in the streets when that happened.
When people said that we deserved it. That scares me. I am so historically ignorant that I didn't understand that SO many people hate us.
I watched a documentary on Discovery Channel the other night about the flight that hit the 2nd tower. About the people on that plane. There was a family on that plane - a husband, wife and 2 year old baby and I think - Why did someone hate them? What did that baby do to deserve her fate? I still have no answers and if I think too hard about it I start questioning everything.
I was 7 months pregnant when this happened. I can remember watching the TV, holding my stomach and wondering what kind of world I was bringing my son into.
I know I am a big baby, and it is probably symptomatic of the country, but I HATE to watch anything on that day. I just can't take it. I get afraid and confused all over again. HOw pathetic am I?
I don't know why I am rambling about this. Just going off on tangents as usual.
I hope everyone is doing well - I think about everyone - even if I don't post. Have a good holiday weekend.
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You know you have 2 reasons as to why you don't post often I only have 1 reason and you post more than me!!!
It's ok pea...we still love ya!!
I loved the christening pics...those babies are so sweet, they look so much like Joey. He must be so proud. LOL
Glad things are going well. I hope the new schedule will work for you.
I can relate to your feelings about 9/11.
I watched that show the other night too. I just cried and cried. I think since I live in Missouri, meaning not close to where it happened and I didn't know anyone, I was just in shock that first year. It wasn't until some of the documentaries and pictures came out that I felt the full impact of it. Watching people jump out of windows, seeing the ash all over people, people kneeling on the ground with their head in their hands. God I can't imagine the utter terror these people felt. And now, with all the shows coming out about the people on the planes...it's a little hard to handle. Oddly enough, I have two birthdays to celebrate on Sept. 11, but the mood of that day will not be far from our minds.
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