"Thank you for your payment. Your transaction has been completed, and a receipt for your purchase has been emailed to you"
Do you know what the fuck that is????? Yes, that is right - it is my confirmation for my cheap internet pregnancy tests that I VOWED never to get again because of the false positives!!!!!!!
Son of a bitch what is my deal!?! My boobs started hurting today - I am on Cycle day 22 - I probably ovulated on CD 17 - which means I am about 5 dpo - even though I KNOW I AM NOT PREGNANT - I have already started thinking about taking a test - what happened to me - yesterday I said I would wait until Easter - and then what do I go and do??? Buy those Stupid fucking cheap tests that don't work anyway!!!! I am such an asshole!
My only saving grace is that I won't buy any of the more expensive ones now because I know the cheap ones are on order and will be here in 3-4 days - so If I get them by Thursday then I will take the tests Thursday night, friday morning, saturday morning, sunday morning and Monday morning - which will bring me to all of Cycle day 29 - 2 days before AF is due - maybe I will be able to hold out for two days to see if (and when) AF arrives on Tuesday or Wednesday.
My boobs started hurting a little last night - so today I checked FF to see when they started hurting last month and the month before - and because they are beginning to hurt about 4-5 days earlier than usual - here I go getting my fucking hopes up again - Jesus - I only danced on my first peak day (actually it was in between the two - I got my first peak CD16 morning and we danced at about 1:30am on CD 17.) - So my chances are slim - real slim.
Why do I do this to myself - and why the hell does it come on so suddenly???? Yesterday I thought I was ok - no problem - I can wait - Today.....what a fucking mess!!!!
OK - I really need to get back to work - God - I need to start compartmentalizing (sp) - work when I am at work, mess around when I am at home!!!!
I have SERIOUS FUCKING ISSUES PEOPLE.......I think I need an Intervention - Big Time!!!
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I understand "serious fucking issues" and I am sorry that you are having to deal with them!
What the hell...they are cheap, so they can be wasted. Isn't that why we buy the cheap ones anyway? I mean, we know that it is too early, yet we continue to pee, pee, pee, and yet again pee on those sticks. You would think with the monitors and OPK's we would get all of the peeing out of our system....but NOPE...still have that urge.
Who knows, maybe since you least expect it work this month....it will.
Not only is your hope up, but reading your post...so is mine!!!!!
We need one...we need one...we need one!
Take care and try not to worry about the fucking issues... we all have them.
Chas
Ok you...you seriously need to change your mentality here. This was the month that you weren't even gonna try , thats why you didn't take your temps. And NO, NEVER EVER buy those tests...you remember what happened to us both a few months ago? If the only reason you bought them was so you wouldn't buy the more expensive ones...than that should be the only reason. I would not test with them. WOULD NOT JENN!!!! If I have to call your ass up every damn morning to talk you out of it, I will...cause dammit....if you get another false positive I will go to webwomb and beat all of their asses...and believe me, it won't be pretty!
Jenn,
We all have serios issues! We are all pg test whores. It is like a fix. We have to test. We live for disapointment. It is a sickness I tell you. There is this girl in one of my classes. She doesn't want to be pregnant but AF is 8 days late... lucky bitch.. Well she hasn't tested yet. can you imagine??? being late and not testing. We are never late yet we test all the fucking time. I hate this peeing on a stick thing. You are in my thoughts. Good luck!!!
Jenna
I think there is something on the stick that makes us insane!! At least that is what I like to blame anyway. I have never used the cheap ones at all. If I get a postive I want it to be on something I can trust!
I have done much better with the stick since my infertility has a name. I figure there is no use wasting $10 on the test. I can use that towards the IVF. Anyway I hope you are feeling better now
Heather P
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