New Blog

Well, I have started up a New Blog - I have a hard time using the html codes on regular blogger - but could not convert this page to the new beta format - which is so much easier.

Please visit my new page for updates on me.

I still have the baby website which gives updates for the kids - my new page will just be a continuation of this blog - my life, rants and stupid crap.

Sorry to be a big pain in the ass!

Thanks everyone!

First Committee Meeting

WEll, I had my first committee meeting for Winter Wonderland - Holy Conflicting Personalities Batman - I want to be involved with school - but it seems like such a political clique - eee (is that a word?) atmosphere.

I will tough it out b/c I know it will make JOey happy - but it gets frustrating.

Anyway, I signed up to do the set up and breakfast of the event - I am not the artsy craftsy type so I told them - keep me away from that part!

I am also sending out the Thank you letters after the event - I can handle computer work.

I hope everyone is doing well - I am signing off now since I am at work. I wanted to leave you with these thoughts:

Some things I learned from my kids:

Spit really is the universal cleanser!

Poop can roll.

It is possible for a nose to run for 5 days straight and NOT to run out of SNOT!

Kids are one of the grossest things that God created.

The smell of a freshly bathed, powdered and lotioned baby lasts only about 1/2 hour.

White tights are a very good indication of when to steam clean the carpet!

That's it - just some things I would have never known had I not had my three babies!

Joey came to work with me Saturday - here is what he was up to.......

Needless to say, I need to fill up my supplies!

Have a good one.

It has been forever

Sorry I have not updated in forever. It has been a stressfull couple of months. I am nearing my birthday and you start ticking off your plans for life and realize you have so much left to do. I get the blahs pretty much every birthday. I am also pmsing.

I am on cd 44 - before everyone goes crazy - if you recall before fertility treatments my cycle was very very long - thank you PCOS. I guess I am getting back to "my normal". Besides - the whole cycle I have had sex a whopping one time - we go to bed with the best of intentions every night but then fall straight to sleep - it really is very cliche.

Work has been going crazy and I don't feel like I am really giving 100%. I have changed my schedule so that I work while JOey is in school but I feel like I am juggling all of these things and not keeping one thing in the air.

Halloween went pretty well - thank goodness it was a nice day out. I had a migraine by the end of the night - Halloween should be on the last Saturday of the month instead of every October 31st - that way you can get an early start and even better - an early finish!

I went to my first PTA meeting last night - 2 1/2 hours later - holy crap! Next month is a holiday meeting at a restaurant - with drinking - thank you very much.

Joey and I have been back and forth - when the stress gets to us we fight - then we are good for a few days and then bad for a few. I really can't wait to get back to normal.

The twins are amazing - it is crazy how two nine month olds can have such different personalities - Jenny is so wired - always going. Nicky is so laid back - he just hangs - too cute.

Joey is doing really well in school - he is starting to read - which is crazy for me to think about - he loves school. Next week is Parent/TEacher conferences - let's see if school loves him back!

My brother comes home in a few short months. My entire family is renting an RV (or two) and we are driving up to meet him when he gets off the plane. He lives in upstate NY about 7-8 hours from here. Should be really good.

I signed up for the schools Winter Wonderland festival - I have never been on a PTA committee before- I could either love it or absolutely hate it - I don't think that there is an in-between here. My husband asked me last night about the PTA meetings if it was even worth it for me to go. Believe me - after an hour and a half I was asking myself the same thing BUT I told him - I want to be the type of mom that does go to the PTA meetings and knows what is going on with my kid - I want him to see me involved - there is too much stuff that goes on nowadays - I don't know - I am rambling.

OK - here are some more ramblings:

1. Love Love Love new season of Top Chef - but really can't stand the new host - she speaks so slowly and practiced - hate it!

2. SO glad that Flavor Flav did not pick New York. What a psycho hose beast! Definately won't watch her show - she is like nails on a blackboard.

3. Getting sick of "Lips of an Angel" Feel bad for his girl in the next room.

4. OK - when is the new HBO shows going to start already - Sunday nights are sucking.

5. Danny Bonaducci (spelling) - can someone say "Whack Job"

6. Cold weather is coming - my cold urticaria is back - I don't care - I love wearing winter clothes - nothing more comfortable than a big sweater and jeans - I can also pack on my winter blubber - bring on the snickers!

7. CAn't think of much else and really should be getting to work.

Talk to everyone soon. I will post holiday and halloween pictures on the baby site soon. Have a great day.

Does it make me a bad person?

My husband checked up on me the other night. I text message my assistant pretty much every morning with my breakfast order (my assistant is a man). I found out that my husband called his number on Saturday night. Now, it could have been an accident - press redial thing since I was using my husbands cell for a couple of days - so I am not sure if he was actually checking up on me but...
does it make me a bad person that I got a little giddy knowing he may have been a slight bit jealous or nervous?

You have to know my husband - he could walk into a bar where I was satisfying every man in there orally and basically just tell me to remember to brush before I got home - that is how NOT jealous he is. I, on the other hand, am insanely jealous - I can get pissed off when he says 'thank you' too nicely to the burger king girl!

Therefore, I am somewhat gratified that he had a moment of weakness and/or insecurity - so tell me - am I a bad person?

Not much to say

Not too much to say...I think I had a panic attack the other day - a minor one and I kind of recognized it. My heart started racing for no reason. I think I have been so stressed and nervous about Joey starting School (rightly so if you read the babies blog) that I was just overwhelmed. I am ok now -

Work is crazy - same as usual. Got a little annoyed at my boss the other day which is unusual for me - but I got over it - and I think he knew I was annoyed so he will be nice to me on Saturday when I go back to work.

I took off yesterday, today and tomorrow for Joey's first week of school - it makes me realize how much I wish I stayed at home. Don't get me wrong - I really like my job but sometimes I wish I could just stay home all day and have that be my full time occupation. I feel like I am playing catch-up all the time - catch up at home, catch-up at work - We were all so tired yesterday from the excitement - Joey fell asleep at 6:00pm, the babies were asleep by 7:00 and I was in bed by 9:00pm - my husband came home from work at 10 and the house was dark!

Since I don't have too much to say, I am going to copy my friend Jamie, and post some things I have learned....

I have learned that baby wipes take out almost any stain.

I have learned that a mother's guilt is the most powerful thing in the world.

I have learned that you can love more than one baby with you whole heart.

I have learned that you can't love more than one man that way.

I have learned that regretting the past won't make the present better.

I have learned that it is hard to remember that.

I have learned that you can never meet a person face to face and be as close as sisters.

I have learned that, despite what I believed growing up, I have one of the best families in the world.

I have learned that not all brothers and sisters love each-other like mine.

I have learned that fear can paralyze you.

I have learned that I am old fashioned after all.

I have learned that Dunkachinos are fattening - and

I have learned that I don't give a shit.

I have learned that no matter how miserable you are when you are pregnant...you still miss being pregnant.

I have learned that regardless of the number of children I may have - I will still wonder what the one I lost is like.

I have learned that things probably do happen for a reason but that knowledge doesn't make it easier to take.

I have learned that I miss my Grandmother.

I have learned that I don't like cheap wine.

I have learned that I am smart and self sufficient but sometimes I can get tired of being the reliable one.

I have learned that I am a jealous person.

I have learned that TV really is a good thing.

I have learned that bribery works.

I have learned that the Library will report your failure to return 4 books to the credit bureau.

I have learned that taking the first step is hard and taking the second is sometimes harder.

I have learned that macaroni salad, if not cleaned up properly, will stain a carpet forever.

I have learned that I like being in charge.


OK - enough for now - Hope everyone is doing well.

Jenn

Well Hello,

Hello everyone! I am not going to even apologize for being a slacker - you all know I am and hopefully you all forgive me for it.

So...what has been going on - abso fucking lutely nothing.

I am getting Joey ready for school - which starts on Wednesday. I have finally gotten him on a really good schedule - he is in bed sleeping every night by 8:30. That is a major feat because my kid definately is a night person.

I have adjusted my work schedule starting the week of the 11th. I will be working 4 days from 9:30 to 3:00 - that way I can get Joey on the bus and get him off - it will almost be like he has a stay at home mom - imagine that. I will still have to work Saturdays but it should be ok - my only concern is that it cuts a day out of my time with the babies - which still seems so limited. I will see how it works out.

I had dinner at my boss' house the other night - I got totally tanked on red wine - I don't know what kind it was - all I know is it was good!!!! LOL

September 11th is coming up - I can't believe it will already be 5 years since that day. This will be the first year since it happened that I will be working - I usually take the day off. Thank God that I didn't know anyone that was killed that day but for some reason it totally shook me to the core.

I was born in a generation that really hasn't had to deal with too many dramas. The terrorist attacks that took place in the 70's - I really don't recall since I was so young. The only war we ever had to deal with was the Gulf War and that was over in a matter of minutes - I think my generation before 9/11 had the sense that we were untouchable and that all changed on that day. The realization that people (and I know this sounds so naive) REALLY hated us. What sticks out in my mind is how people in other countries were dancing in the streets when that happened.
When people said that we deserved it. That scares me. I am so historically ignorant that I didn't understand that SO many people hate us.

I watched a documentary on Discovery Channel the other night about the flight that hit the 2nd tower. About the people on that plane. There was a family on that plane - a husband, wife and 2 year old baby and I think - Why did someone hate them? What did that baby do to deserve her fate? I still have no answers and if I think too hard about it I start questioning everything.

I was 7 months pregnant when this happened. I can remember watching the TV, holding my stomach and wondering what kind of world I was bringing my son into.

I know I am a big baby, and it is probably symptomatic of the country, but I HATE to watch anything on that day. I just can't take it. I get afraid and confused all over again. HOw pathetic am I?

I don't know why I am rambling about this. Just going off on tangents as usual.

I hope everyone is doing well - I think about everyone - even if I don't post. Have a good holiday weekend.

Not much going on here. Busy as usual but I guess it is status quo. Work has been crazy - I feel like I am never home - I love the summer but I hate the constant "something to do" that goes along with it.

I am taking Joey to his first yankee game tomorrow -he is so excited - it will be his first yankee game and his first train ride - should be fun. My sister is going to take care of the babies - this will be the first time we are leaving them with someone for a real extended period of time and only the 3rd time we have left them EVER. My sister is excited - boy is she in for a surprise!

The Christening is next weekend. We are having the party at a county park - hot dogs, hamburgers, hero, salads, beer, wine and soda - a real down home white trash party!!! LOL - I don't care this is probably the only chance I will get to have a party in the summer since Joe's birthday is late fall and the twins are early winter.

School starts in three short weeks - I have no nails left I am biting them so much.

I am thinking about going back to get my masters degree - if not starting in January then starting next September - the program meets once every other week - it will take me a couple of years but I figure by the time the babies go to school I will have my degree. My goal is to ultimately start teaching on the college level - who knows - we will see what happens.

I am taking this from Jess....


It is my on notice board...


Well, maybe not. For some reason it isn't uploading - so I guess I will try again later.

I am posting more pics to the baby website so go on over and take a look.

I hope everyone is doing well!!!

Stealing from my brother Ryan

OK - these cracked me up - sometimes you just need stupid.....Jokes from Mitch something or other.....


All McDonalds commercials end the same way: "prices and participation may vary." I want to open my own McDonalds and not participate in shit. I want to be a stubborn McDonalds owner. "You got Big Macs?" "Nope. We got spaghetti! And blankets."

Tortillas are sleeping bags for ground beef.


I had a bag of Fritos, but these were Texas Grilled Fritos. These Fritos had grill marks on them. Hell yeah. Reminds me of summer time, when we used to fire up the barbeque and throw down some Fritos. I can still see my dad with the apron on. "Better flip that Frito, Dad. You know how I like mine: with grill marks."

I had a stick of Carefree gum, but it didn't work. I felt pretty good while I was blowing that bubble, but as soon as the gum lost its flavor, I was back to pondering my mortality.

I like cinnamon rolls. That's why I wish they made, like, a cinnamon roll incense. 'Cause I don't always have time to make a pan. Perhaps I'd rather light a stick, and have my roommates wake up with false hopes.

I like vending machines, because snacks are better when they fall. If I buy a candy bar at the store oftentimes I will drop it, so that it achieves its maximum flavor potential.

I opened up a container of yogurt, and under the lid it said "Please Try Again." Apparently I was in a contest I was unaware of. But I thought I might have opened the yogurt wrong or maybe Yoplait was trying to inspire me. "C'mon, Mitchell, don't give up. Please try again. A message of inspiration from your friends at Yoplait. Fruit on the bottom, hope on top."

If carrots got you drunk, rabbits would be fucked up.

That would be cool if you could eat a good food with a bad food and the good food would cover for the bad food when it got to your stomach. Like, you could eat a carrot with an onion ring and they would travel down to your stomach, then they would get there, and the carrot would say, "It's cool, he's with me."

You know they call corn on the cob, corn on the cob, but that's how it comes out of the ground, man. They should call that "corn." They should call every other version "corn off the cob." It's not like if you cut off my arm you would call it "Mitch." Then reattach it and call me "Mitch-all-together."

I like swiss cheese. It's the only cheese you can draw with a pencil and identify. You can draw American cheese, but someone will think it's cheddar. Swiss cheese is the only cheese you can bite and miss. "Hey Mitch - does that sandwich have cheese on it?" "Every now and then!"

I think pickles are cucumbers that sold out. They sold their soul to the devil, and the devil is dill.
They say that the recipe for Sprite is lemon and lime. But I tried to make it at home. There's more to it than that. "Hey, you want some more homemade Sprite, man?" "Not until you figure out what the fuck else is in it!"

I had a box of Ritz crackers and on the back of the box of Ritz crackers it had all these suggestions as to what to put on top of the Ritz. It said, "Try it with turkey and cheese." "Try it with peanut butter." Oh, c'mon man, they're crackers. That's why I got 'em I like crackers. There ain't no suggestion: "Put a Ritz on top of a Ritz." I didn't buy 'em 'cuz they're little edible plates.

I don't have a microwave but I do have a clock that occasionally cooks shit.

I like baked potatoes, man. I don't have a microwave oven; it takes forever to cook a baked potato in a conventional oven. Sometimes I'll just throw one in there, even if I don't want one, because by the time it's done... who knows? I'll throw a potato in and go on vacation.

I can't wait 'til this set is over, 'cuz I've got a roll of Lifesavers in my pocket, and pineapple is next!

I order a club sandwich all the time. And I'm not even a member. I don't know how I get away with it. "I like my sandwiches with three pieces of bread." "So do I." "Lets form a club then." "Okay, but we're gonna need more stipulations." "Yes we do." "OK... instead of cutting it once, lets cut it again." "Yeah, four triangles." "And we will position them in a circle. And in the middle we will dump chips. Or potato salad." "Let me ask you a question, how do you feel about frilly toothpicks?" "I'm for 'em!" "Well, this club is formed. Spread the news on menus nationwide."

Once I saw this wino who was eating grapes, and I said, "Dude, you have to wait".

I get the Reese's candy bar. If you read that name Reese's that's an apostrophe S. Reese's apostrophe S at the end of that name. That means the candy bar is his. I didn't know that. Next time you're eating a Reese's candy bar and a guy name Reese comes by and says "Let me have that", you better hand it over. "I'm sorry, Reese. I didn't think I'd ever run into you. You're a fuckin' bully, man."

The Kit Kat candy bar has the name "Kit Kat" imprinted in the chocolate. That robs you of chocolate. Kit Kat has come up with a clever chocolate saving-technique. I'm gonna go down to the Kit Kat factory, and say "Hey, you owe me some letters."

Mr. Pibb is a replica of Dr. Pepper, but it's a bullshit replica, 'cuz the dude didn't even get his degree. Alright.

They won't let you have drinks back there. I like a Jack & Coke. One time, I saw a Jack & Coke and it had a lime floating in it, and I thought, "That's good to know." Next time I'm on a boat and it capsizes, I will reach for a lime. I'll be water skiing without a life jacket and people will be like "What the hell?" and I'll pull out a lime. I'll pull out a lemon too, saved by the buoyancy of citrus!
I went to a restaurant and I ordered a chicken sandwich, but I don't think the waitress heard me 'cause she asked how I'd like my eggs. So I tried answering her anyways. "INCUBATED! Then hatched, then raised, then beheaded, then plucked, then cut up, then put onto a grill, then put onto a bun. Damn, it's gonna take a while. I don't have the time. Scrambled!"

A waffle is like a pancake with syrup traps.

I hate turkeys. If you stand in the meat section at the grocery store long enough, you start to get mad at turkeys. There's turkey ham, turkey bologna, turkey pastrami. Some one needs to tell the turkey: man, just be yourself. I already like you, little brother. You do not need to emulate the other animals. I used to draw you. (Stares at hand.) Man, if you were missing a couple of fingers, you drew one fucked-up turkey. You'd be like, "That turkey's been in an accident."

I like refried beans. That's why I wanna try fried beans, because maybe they're just as good and we're just wasting time. You don't have to fry them again after all.

You know that Pepperidge Farm bread, that stuff is fancy. That stuff is wrapped twice. You open it, and it still ain't open. That's why I don't buy it, I don't need another step between me and toast.

I tried to have a cookie, and this girl said, "I'm mailing those cookies to my friend," so I couldn't have one. You shouldn't make cookies untouchable.

What's a sesame seed grow into? I don't know we never give them a chance. What the fuck is a sesame?! It's a street. It's a way to open shit.

My friend asked me if I wanted a frozen banana, and I said, "No, but I want a regular banana later, so yeah."

Rice is great if you're really hungry and want to eat two thousand of something.

I make instant oatmeal in the morning then I don't do shit for an hour. Makes me wonder why I need the instant oatmeal. I could make the regular oatmeal and feel productive.

Fettucini alfredo is macaroni and cheese for adults.

I was at a fair, and they were having a contest. It said, "Guess how many jelly beans there are in
the jar" and you win a prize. "Ah c'mon, man, lemme just haaaave some. Tell you what, you guess how many I want. If you said a handful, you are correct."

As a comedian you have to start a show strong and end the show strong. Those are the two key elements. You can't be like pancakes, all exciting at first but at the end you're fucking sick of them.


They say Diet Dr. Pepper tastes just like regular Dr. Pepper. Well, then, they fucked up!

Total Laziness

OK - I know I am the laziest person in the world but I have discovered the most WONDERFUL invention in the world. It is Peapod by Stop and Shop. This service delivers your groceries right to the door. You simply go online fill up your "shopping cart" and they deliver your groceries the next day! If you order over $100 of groceries the fee is only $6.95!!! Hello??? I would spend that in gas just going to the grocery store! Of course, my downer husband was like "Well, what if they pick out bad produce...blah blah blah" - Guess what? They didn't my tomatoes are plump and juicy and my meat is nice and fresh (yes, everyone I know how it sounded - and I am so orgasmic over Peapod that I DON"T CARE!!!!)

Now, if I could get Target to deliver my baby stuff I would be all set!!!!!

Not much else is going on - same old same old. Work is insanely busy as usual. Did I mention that I got a new office? I love it - we were given the credit card to decorate it - it was a very nice change.

The kids have a doctor's appointment tomorrow - all three of them - and all three of them are getting shots - this should be interesting!

Joe and I are hot and cold - sometimes we get along so well that we are like two crazy kids - other times we fight over the smallest thing - it gets frustrating - things have happened in the past that I can't let go of (no - not infidelity if that is what you are thinking). I know that I should be talking to someone but sometimes I get so tired of thinking about it - the last thing I want to do is talk it out.

I guess we are just in a rough patch - hopefully everything will all work out - taking it day by day.

I have finally scheduled the Christening which will be August 20th - I have to get invitations tomorrow - we are having the party at Southaven Park - hopefully it won't freakin' rain.

That is about it I guess. I have been reading blogs and trying to keep up with everyone - I am going to go comment now since I have been so lax about it.

Hope everyone is doing well!

Ramblings.....

Well, I don't have much to update. I got a new office at work - very nice and offers more privacy so that is a good thing.

Life has been pretty status quo. Joe's Dad went into the hospital - so much family drama it is tiresome.

Here is a survey that Ally sent to me:

A) Four jobs I have had in my life:
1. Newspaper Carrier
2. Counter Person at Pizzeria
3. Pizza Maker (yes, I can make a real pizza - I can even throw it up in the air!)
4. CPA
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>B) Four movies I watch over and over:
1. Godfather I
2. Godfather II
3. Braveheart
4. Steel Magnolias
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>C) Four places I have lived:
All in NY:
1. Centereach
2. Selden
3. Shirley
4. Yaphank

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>D) Four TV shows I love to watch:
1. Friends
2. Gilmore Girls
3. Project Runway/Top Chef (tie)
4. Rescue Me
5. (ok - I know it is only supposed to be 4 but...) HBO Sunday Nights - all shows!

>E) Four places I have been on vacation:

1. Disney
2. Rhode Island (Mystic, Foxwoods)
3. Colorado
4. Upstate NY


>F) Web sites you visit daily

1. My IPP girls
2. MSN.com
3. My bank ( I am an anal reconciler!)
4. NYSACRA

>G) Four of my favorite foods:
1. Pasta
2. Pasta
3. Pasta
4. Did I mention Pasta?

>H) Four places I would rather be right now:
I know this is corny but I am home relaxing and there isn't really anywhere else Iwould like to be - I am not big on vacations - it is such a hassle - I know I am such a deadbeat!

OK - I am going to add some more - juicy ones!!!

>I) Craziest Place you have had sex:
In that pizzeria I worked at!!!

>J) One person in the world who you would apologize to if you could:
Janeane from High School- I was so mean to her.

>K) One person you would smack in the face if you had the chance:
Probably Scott - Played me for a fool in High School.

>L) One Person you would thank if you had the chance:
Mrs. Cain from 8th grade Math - she was the first teacher who made me believe in myself.

>M) One person you regret NOT having sex with:
Mike!! OK - actually two - Mike and Pat - what the hell was I thinking?????

>N) One person you regret Having Sex with:
Probably a guy named Joe - I did it with him to get someone else jealous - it wasn't good AT ALL - he actually did poses (like flexing muscle poses) afterwards - I pretended to be asleep so he would leave - terrible!

>O) If you could go back in time - would you have been more or less promiscuous?
More - definately More - I kick myself sometimes!!! LOL

>P) Do you believe in love at first sight?
No - just lust.

>Q) Do you believe in destiny?
I believe that everything happens for a reason.

>R) If you could speak to anyone - living or dead - who would it be? ( I know this is a copycat question - I read it somewhere before).
Jesus - if not Jesus then my Great Grandmother - just very curious about her.


OK - that is all I can think of right now - and I am getting so freakin' tired. FYI I posted more pics on the babies' website

Hope everyone is doing well!! Talk to you all soon!

You like me, you really really like me.......

Well, as Ally pointed out - even though many people do not comment on the blog....a few are actually reading - as seems to be the case when I click the "view site stats" link on the bottom of my page which I didn't even realize existed. So I am back! I can't promise how often I will update b/c I still have the baby centered life dilemma but I will do my best.

Jenna - thank you for pointing out that the baby site is accessed by my family and they may find this site through your link if you comment - didn't even think about that!

So...here is something that I don't think I have spoken about.....

My brother is currently serving in Afghanistan and I am completely scared shitless about him everyday. He has three young boys and a wife and he is over there serving his country. The sad part is half of America doesn't even realize we are still in Afghanistan and to read the news now it seems like it is getting worse and worse over there. There was an article in Time magazine that said the Taliban is now posting notes on people's doors at night to intimidate them. Please say a prayer that he comes home safely.

He just was home for a few weeks - it was so nice seeing him - but so sad too because I knew he would be leaving before we knew it. We do not expect him home for at least another 9 months now - after which he can be deployed to Iraq at any moment. I can't even imagine how his wife is feeling - I don't even pretend to understand.

Anyway - I know you are not reading this but.......

I AM PROUD OF YOU LITTLE BROTHER!

OK - well that is my quick update. I have to get back to work now. Hope everyone is doing well!!!!

Think I am shutting down...

Hello all 2 people that actually read this thing anymore. I am sorry that I have a hard time updating the blog. Right now my life is filled with work (boring) and the kids and I don't really have too much to say about anything else at this point.

I am sensitive to the fact that this was an infertility blog - and that many infertiles read it before I had the babies - I don't want to turn this into a baby blog - I can see from the comments on the baby blog that I do have that it is not the topic most people are interested in.....

On that note....I don't think I will be posting here anymore - I appreciate everyone's support in my journey and I will continure to watch all of your progress and will rejoice with you when you receive your miracle.

I will still post baby pics and updates at the baby blog... www.babiesmakefive.blogspot.com

Good luck to everyone and Thank you.

Copying the Copycat

OK - got this from Jess' blog and I am copying. OK - so I typed 'Jennifer Needs' into google and here is what I got....

1. Jennifer needs to slap Abby ASAP.
2. Jennifer needs flatware.
3. Jen needs to let go and get a life.
4. jennifer needs heavy visual depiction of her subject in order for it all to work (whatever the fuck that means)
5. Jennifer needs to make the rounds fast.
6. Jennifer needs to sex it up a little and decides to come out in a bit less without showing off too much.
7. Jennifer needs to keep improving.
8. Jennifer needs to soar in some way.
9. Jennifer needs to stop whining.
10. Jennifer needs help immediately with all of her bills (ain't that the fuckin' truth!)
11. Jennifer needs an explanation

and my favorite.................

Jennifer needs a Smack Daddy!!!!!

Barry Bonds

OK - I am not exactly sure why people are "yeah Bonds beat Babe Ruth" - Hello??? He is a juice head - I mean give me a fucking break already. And don't even get me started on fucking McGuire single season record - fuck that steroid freak - I don't get why these people are still playing - first off - McGuire should be stripped of the record - he was roiding when he achieved it.
2nd - yeah Bonds may not be sticking himself this season - but let's eliminate ALL home runs from the seasons that he was.
My son is a psycho baseball fan - he can't wait until he turns 5 so he can join little league - I shutter to think that these people will be his role models.
This
article in Newsday says it better than I can.

Sorry - just needed to ramble a bit!

Long Overdue Update

I know, I know - it has been forever since my last update. Thing is, not much has been going on with me. Basically, I am just living life and that is it. Trying to get used to this schedule with the three kids and work.
Joe and I seem to be getting along better. He has been seeing a therapist so hopefully he can iron out his issues so we can iron out ours.

The babies are doing good - they are getting very big - it amazes me how quick the time goes. We watched video of Joey this morning when he was 7 months old - It is hard to remember when he was that young.

It is so hot here - we skipped right over spring and went straight to summer! The good thing is that I can put all the cute summer dresses on Jenny that I bought - I still can't believe I have a little girl!

Nicky is my little man - he is always so so happy. The only time he cries is when he is hungry or tired - never really has any cranky episodes.

Jenny on the other hand is a typical woman - cranky unless she is getting EXACTLY what she wants WHEN she wants it!!!! That's my girl! LOL

Joey has a cold and a bump on his head. Yesterday, Joe was swinging him on his tree swing and I guess Joey zigged when he was supposed to Zag and BOOM - hit his head on the tree!

Joey's Preschool graduation is on the 15th and then in 3 short months (sniff) he starts kindergarten - I can't believe it. I actually have to pick up his immunization records and register him next week. I have been putting it off - I feel like, once he starts school that is it - he isn't a baby anymore! How will I handle it?????????????????

What is everyone doing for the summer? I don't have any big plans - just some day trips planned:

- Museum of Natural History
- Bronx Zoo
- Riverhead Aquarium
- Yankee Game(s)
- Maybe Upstate for a couple of days.

I have to start planning the Christening - I am not having anything big and may take my sister up on her offer to have the party in her backyard - there won't be many people there. I guess we shall see.

OK - so I know it wasn't much of an update - more of a rambling.

I hope everyone is doing well - hopefully I will think of something brilliant and inspirational to say soon!

Have a great Memorial Day!

Hey All

This will be a quick one - I am at work right now so can't write much. I just wanted to let everyone know that I have been thinking about them:

Ally - I am sorry your leg isn't 100% better - but all the more reason to stay in bed !!!!!!
Lesley - I am so so sorry that IUI didn't work this cycle - I understand how you feel - hopefully 3rd time will be the charm.
Chas - Have a great time in Texas - I know your grandmother is going to adore Sammy!
Jamie - Give us an update on how you are feeling and what you have decided.
Jess - We need an update from you!!! Miss hearing from you girl!
Liz - O my God!!! Congratulations!!!
Heather P - Ashton is getting so big! Congrats on the Baptism! I know working is hard - Mother's guilt is a terrible thing!
Heather M - O my God - how cute is Maddie - great pics!!!
Jenna - I am glad things are going better for you!
To everyone on PW - I do still read from time to time and I wish you all the luck in the world!!!

So about me...nothing much - work has been a little crazy lately - I am really tired, most days I start work around 7am which sucks!!! The babies are sleeping through the night, so that is good but Jenny has been very very cranky for the past few days - all she wants is to be held in the football position and bounced.

Joe started seeing someone - hopefully we will get back on track.

That is it for now - hopefully I will talk to everyone soon.

CONGRATULATIONS
LIZ AND IVAN!!!

I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU! YOU DESERVE IT!!!!

I know it has been too long

Hey everyone - just wanted to let you all know that I have been reading - just having a hard time commenting lately.

I am back to work -and I HATE it - I miss the kids so much! It feels like I never left because I am right back into the bullshit of things!

The babies are doing great -getting so big - Jenny is sleeping through the night every night now - Nicky is having a harder time.

I am back to not taking care of myself again - living on Coffee - my husband and I have not been getting along too great lately - probably because of the stress - we go through cycles - I guess this is a down swing. Honestly, so much has happened between us in the past that I really think we need to go to counseling - we don't fight about anything really current - just past shit that doesn't go away. It is fucking annoying.

Anyway - enough bullshit.

I am at work right now - so I have to be going - just wanted to let everyone know that I am still here and I will try to comment on blogs as soon as possible.

One side note to the IPP.................HOLY SHIT - DID WE CALL IT OR WHAT!!!!!!!! Google is an amazing creation!!!!

Quick Update before bed

Well, it is 10:30 at night - I have to take a shower before I go to bed because I have to go to work tomorrow. I began work on Monday and right off the bat did a 9 1/2 hour day - so much for easing back into it. Joey said that he was happy that I went back to work so I could make money to buy him toys!!!

The babies went to the doctor today. The details and a link to new pics are at the
baby site .

I am so tired - it has been such a long week and it is only Tuesday!!! I definately did not want to go back to work - holy dose of Mother's guilt! I know it is great that my husband can stay with the babies when I work - but I admit that I am totally jealous of the time he spends with them - no matter that he works at night and I have my own alone time.

Work was just as hectic as always and I got right back into the swing of things - there is so much work it feels like I never left - 8 weeks went by way too fast.

I haven't been updating too much but I do read blogs as much as I possibly can and I comment when I am able. I have been very lax lately and I apologize to everyone. I also don't get on the web at work anymore - I feel like I need to concentrate on work when I am there so that I can forget about it when I get home. Before I left I felt like whenever I was at work, I was worrying about things going on at home and when I was home, I was worrying about work - made me feel totally crazy and I wasn't very productive anywhere! I feel the need to be focused lately - probably because everything has the potential to be so chaotic.

So what is everyone doing for Easter?? I don't really have any plans. We may be going to breakfast at the hotel my sis-in-law works at to see the Easter Bunny but then I think we are having a quiet day at home - which sounds really good right about now.

Well, I think that is about it right now....like I said - I have to take a shower before bed so that I can sleep an extra 15 minutes tomorrow morning.

I will hopefully talk to everyone soon.

Love ya!

Things I have learned....

Things I have learned in the past 6 weeks.....

1. Crying doesn't hurt babies.
2. The binkie is the most magical invention in the world.
3. It is possible to burp two babies simultaneously while carrying on a conversation with a 4 year old.
4. A 4 year old is a HUGE help with two babies at home.
5. Spit up, Poop and other bodily functions do not bother you like they did before.
6. The bouncy seat and swing are the 2nd and 3rd most magical inventions in the world.
7. No matter how hard you try - the baby will always end up in your bed.
8. It is possible to function on only 2 hour naps.
9. My husband is the most amazing dad in the entire world.
10. I am not too bad of a mom.
11. I don't want to go back to work.
12. The novelty of twins wears off pretty quick for everyone.
13. The novelty of twins NEVER wears off for us - still amazed that there are two.
14. Might be crazy - but still want more - I am sure I will change my mind once these two start walking and talking!
15. Four seems so grown up compared to 6 weeks.
16. It is possible to love 3 as much as you loved one.
17. I can understand how my mother was addicted to infants.
18. I can go months without sex. I got the go ahead two days ago and still have not stayed awake long enough to take advantage!
19. Don't think I will be tonight either!
20. It is possible to learn something new everyday.


OK - time to go - have to get some sleep - Hope everyone is doing well.

Love,
Jenn

New Site

Well, I took a cue from several of my blogger women and set up a new blog for children updates. The address is http://www.babiesmakefive.blogspot.com/ . The main reason I set up that site was that I wanted to share pics and updates of the kids with my entire family but didn't necessarily want them reading about my trials in getting to this point. Everyone knows that I was dealing with infertility but most don't know the extent of our problems and I never really talked about my feelings or depression over our issues.

I come from a family of basically VERY fertile women, Mom had 7, two sisters had two kids but each were surprises, My one sister had only one child - she had a series of progressively bad miscarriages and eventually got her tubes tied. It may seem that I could talk to her about it but she tends to dismiss my problems because what she went through was worse - which I am NOT disputing - but it isn't something you really want to hear.

My husband's sisters also get pregnant very easily and have absolutely NO clue about infertility - if I heard one more time "Will you get on with it already!" I was going to scream!!!!!

So I will TRY to maintain two sites, one that is generic baby updates and one that really has my thoughts and feelings down - strange that I can express how I feel to a bunch of people I have never met face to face but not to people I have known my whole life!!!!

I am having a hard time commenting on blogs but I am trying my hardest - it will get harder when I go back to work - which is fast approaching- April 10th!

My sister's mother in law embroidered these beautiful blankets for the babies - they list all their birth stats on them. Take a look....










She also hand embroidered like 6 bibs for the babies - I am almost afraid to use them during a feeding - they are so cute!

OK - and one more parting note - my son Joey says that it is very hard work being a big brother - which I guess is why he fell asleep sitting in his chair......





I hope everyone has a good one - hopefully I will update more soon.

Congratulations!!!

To Heather on the birth of her beautiful daughter Madison! I can't wait to see more pictures!!! Good Job!!!!

Thank you....

To Aunt Jamie for the beautiful new blankies.......

Nicky falling asleep under his new blankie 

Jenny cozy under Blanket from Aunt Jamie 

Still Sleeping 

Cozy 

Sleeping 

Nicky and Jenny waiting for Daddy 

Nicky waiting to go home 

Jenny saying Hello 

It's good to be home 

Together at last 

Doctor's appointment yesterday

Just a quick update - I had my doctor's appointment yesterday (2 week) Everything is looking good. (I lost 30 lbs already!)

I asked him about the window in my uterus and the placental abruption and he said both were caused mainly because of the crazy stretching my uterus had to go through to hold the twins. The good news is that if I should happen to get pregnant again (assuming there is only one bean in there) then it isn't likely that it would happen again.

Another one??? Are you crazy??? I know that is what you all are saying - and I know the question that I am constantly asked is "So this is it right? You aren't having any more are you???"

Here is my answer - When the twins turn a year old we will start "not being careful" but will not go through all of the extreme measures (i.e. tracking temps, ovulation sticks, scopes, fertility medication etc.) with trying to get pregnant. I am ecstatically happy right now with my three little ones and will Thank God every day at how blessed I am. If I am fortunate enough - once in my life - to "just get pregnant" then that is in God's plan - if not - I will never sit and wish for what I don't have since I already have so much.

I look at my three children and am amazed and in awe with all of them. Life is so hard sometimes - money is tight, my brother is leaving for Afganistan on Friday, work can be so stressful - but I look in their eyes and know that I am so so blessed. Thank you God for all that you have given me.

I hope everyone is doing well - I have to upload more pics of the babies soon - but I can't find my camera - my brain is a little fried!

Have a good one!

I have been tagged by Jamie.....


Four jobs you have had in your life:
1. Newspaper Delivery Person
2. Deli
3. Pizzeria - Counter and made Pizza!
4. CPA

Four movies you would watch over and over:
1. Braveheart
2. Terms of Endearment
3. Steel Magnolias
4. Dirty Dancing

Four places you have lived:
1. Centereach, NY
2. SElden, NY
3. Shirley, NY
4. Yaphank, NY

Four TV shows you love to watch:
1. Project Runway
2. Friends
3. Apprentice
4. Gilmore Girls

Four places you have been on vacation:
1. Disney
2. Denver, Colorado
3. Rhode Island
4. Connecticut

Four websites I visit daily:
1. Email
2. blogs that I read
3. Washington Mutual
4. My niece's My space to make sure they aren't up to anything

Four of my favorite foods:
1. Chicken Francaise
2. Penne Ala Vodka
3. Mom's Spagetti Marinara
4. Anything Chocolate

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. No where - I am home and that is right where I want to be right now
2.
3.
4.

Four friends I am tagging that I THINK will respond:
1. Chas
2. Jess
3. Jenn
4. Ally

Introducing...........

Hello Everyone!!! I have finally gotten a chance to upload some pics - Here are the stats for those that don't know:

I started having contractions at about 3:00pm on Friday 2/10 - Of course - I just figured they were gas pains - what the hell do I know. On Saturday the 11th, I even tried to go into work - it lasted for all of an hour or so and then we went to the hospital where my contractions were 1-2 minutes apart (yeah - leave it to me - I know!)

Nicholas Henry Mensche entered the world at 11:53 am weighing in at 6 lbs 8 oz and 19.25 inches long (they first told us he was only 18 inches - but a week later he is 19.25 - so I think the Hospital got it wrong!)

Nicky's sister Jennifer Rose Mensche followed two minutes later at 11:55 am at a petite 4 lbs 15 oz and 18 1/2 inches long. Jenny tried to bite the doctor's fingers when she came out.

Unfortunately, I had a placental abruption and Nicky swallowed alot of blood and had to be taken to the NICU - he was a tough little sucker and he was able to come upstairs with us on Monday night.

So far - Nicky is the high maintenance one and Jenny is insanely mellow - guess she takes after her Daddy!

Joey is totally smitten with his brother and sister and very protective too - Daddy is totally in awe.

I am doing fine - a little sore but nothing a few good motrin won't fix.

Both babies were a little jaundice but don't need light therapy - they are a week old today - I can't believe it!!!!

Here are some pics:

Pics of Babies

Update and Hellos

Well, here I am 35 weeks and 6 days - I am getting bigger by the day but that is ok - It is almost over - and then the real hard work begins.

I had a doctor's appointment Tuesday:
Fluid is good
Blood Pressure Perfect
Gained 3 lbs in a week (O MY GOD)
My son is weighing in around 5 lbs 15 oz.
My daughter is weiging in around 5 lbs 11 oz - both are over the 50 percent tile which is fantastic for twins.

My C-Section is still scheduled for the 15th at 1:30 - my doctor couldn't get an earlier time because there are conferences that day - my only other option would have been to deliver on the 13th but I wanted to keep the date on Joe's birthday.

My last day of work is Saturday the 11th - everyone says I am crazy for working up until the last minute but the longer I work while I am pregnant the longer I can be home with the babies.

My husband got a new job - the hours are pretty perfect - T, W, F, S, S from 3 - 10 - when I go back to work I will work the mornings and he will work nights - it will be rough on us but it is important to not have to ship the babies off to a sitter every day so we will manage.

My shower is this Saturday - not that I am supposed to know about it - LOL - my boss had a big post it in his day planner - when I was figuring out scheduling I saw it - OOPS! I didn't register for many things - I have a lot of stuff left over from Joey.

We are almost done with the changes to the house (we are making downstairs a play room) I will be happy and relieved when that is over.

One of my best friends is having her baby today via C-Section - it is her first - we are all so excited for her. We met for dinner last week and she bought me my cradle sets:

Jenny's Cradle Set

Nicki's Cradle Set

Of course now, Joey wants a new bed set - which I agreed to - he is going to get Batman. Joey is getting so excited but he is still upset that I will have to spend time in the hospital. I am sure he will be fine - but he doesn't like to talk about it.

I have been bad at commenting on blogs lately and I am sorry - I have been in absolute sleep mode lately - it seems I can fall asleep anytime and anywhere - except for at night in my own bed!

Ally - I am so happy that you are finally getting to San Antonio - I am also glad that you will be seeing that RE - he sounds really good!

Lesley - I am glad that you have been updating - I 've missed you! I hope Ayden had a good first day of school and that you didn't cry to much!

Chas - Sammy is absolutely beautiful - I can't wait to see more pics!

Jamie - How cool is it that your husband is a cartoon character? I will be watching out for him on Sunday. Good luck with the new method this month!

Jess - Power of Prayer - absolutely! I hope you are doing better - I will try to update more.

Heather - What a cutie Ashton is! I can understand you being so nervous - it should go away by the time he is 45 or so!

Heather - not too much longer to go! Good luck to you!

Liz - I am waiting to hear that Nemo and Frosty stuck like crazy! Good luck to you!

Jenny - Haven't heard much from you - hope you are doing ok.

Jenna - I am sorry things have been difficult lately - I hope everything works out for you.

To anyone I missed - I hope everyone is doing well and this year turns out to be a magical one for all.

Well, I guess I should get to work now! Have a good day!

Love,
Jenn

34 Week Belly pics.......

Well, if we get caught in a rainstorm, at least I know Joey won't get wet!!! LOL



SEE - even the guy on the TV can't believe how big I am - he is just sitting there with a big stupid grin on his face!



My GOD! My belly enters a room 10 minutes before I do - and yes, unfortunately, the stretch marks have appeared - thought I was going to get away with it - but I guess not!
















That's it - 34 weeks and counting.

A little fun...Thanks Melissa

**Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are getting weak?

********Why do banks charge a fee on "insufficient funds" when they know there is not enough? ******

Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet? ***

***Why doesn't glue stick to the bottle? *****

***Why do they use sterilized needles for death by lethal injection? ***

***Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard? ***

***Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him? ****

****Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets? ****

****Whose idea was it to put an "S" in the word "lisp"? ***

***If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes? ****

**Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white? ***

*****Is there ever a day that mattresses are not on sale? ***

***Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized? ***

***Why do people keep running over a string a dozen times with their vacuum cleaner, then reach down, pick it up, examine it, then put it down to give the vacuum one more chance? ***

*****Why is it that no plastic bag will open from the end on your first try? ****

****How do those dead bugs get into those enclosed light fixtures? ***

***When we are in the supermarket and someone rams our ankle with a shopping cart then apologizes for doing so, why do we say, "It's all right?" Well, it isn't all right, so why don't we say, "That hurt, you stupid idiot?" ***

***Why is it that whenever you attempt to catch something that's falling off the table you always manage to knock something else over? ****

****In winter why do we try to keep the house as warm as it was in summer when we complained about the heat? ***

***How come you never hear father-in-law jokes? ***

***And my FAVORITE......

****The statistics on sanity are that one out of every four persons is suffering from some sort of mental illness. Think of your three best friends -- if they're okay, then it's you. **

BANNER FREAKIN' WEEKEND!

CONGRATULATIONS CHAS AND J ON YOUR NEW BABY GIRL!!!!

WELCOME TO THE WORLD SAMMY!

More Congratulations go out to Heather and Carl on little Ashton's arrival!

THIS IS SUCH FANTASTIC NEWS! I WISH YOU AND YOUR LITTLE ONES ALL THE HAPPINESS IN THE WORLD!!!

Blast from the past

God - I miss this Guy!

Well - there hasn't been too much going on here - I am gettting bigger then ever and have been experiencing some braxton hicks contractions lately. Third trimester exhaustion has also taken hold - Joey is sick - I kept him home from Preschool today and called into work -

Last Friday I ended up at the doctor's office being monitored because I was contracting every hour and a 1/2 - which isn't a big deal but they were coming regular so I figured - better be safe then sorry - OF COURSE - not one contraction at the doctor's office! I had one more contraction that night but then none since - so I guess my body was just practicing!

The doctor gave me an internal - holy crap it hurt like hell - I HATE INTERNALS (well, then again - who likes them?)

Now I have to address my son's Christmas Thank you cards and I am going to take a nap.

I have been reading blogs but not commenting too much - I will try to update with everyone later - I just feel wiped out lately. I hope all is good!

Love,
Jenn

Doctor's Appt. Yesterday

Well - I went to the Doctor's yesterday - my chunky kids are both weighing in at 4 pounds 7 ounces each!!! They are the size of single babies and gained 1 1/2 pounds in the past month - right now I have more baby in me then when I delivered my son at 9 months!

I had Braxton Hicks this morning - one contraction was kind of intense - but once I walked around they went away. Boy am I glad I am having a scheduled C-Section! LOL

5 more weeks from today and I deliver - I am getting so nervous and I feel like I still have so much left to do!

Well - that is it - I am at work and I have stuff to do - hopefully I will be able to update more later.

Hope all is well!
Love,
Jenn