Some Belly Pics

Well, here is my profile at 31 weeks - my husband says I look like a bullet! Notice the Protrusion of the Belly Button - my husband is OBSESSED with my belly button - he will rub my belly and then inevitably he starts pushing down on my button - he calls me a push start!!!!















Here is the frontal view - if I would move my hand and let my boobs drop where they would - I would look like Mickey Mouse!!!!




At my last sonogram both babies were measuring at 3 lbs - that was at 28 weeks - according to all the baby books - in single pregnancy the baby should be about 3 pounds at 30-31 weeks - so both of my babies are measuring big - you can definately tell by my belly!!!!!!






I am off from work tomorrow and Sunday so I won't be updating again - so I want to say to everyone:

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

I won't be on all weekend so I just wanted to say to everyone:

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

I hope you all enjoy a wonderful holiday weekend and get all your heart's desire in this coming New Year!!

Small Update

Well, I am 29 weeks today - only 61 more days until my delivery date of February 15th. Do I have ANYTHING ready - that is a big NOPE.

Am I ready for the holidays? That is a big NOPE!

I didn't go to work today - well, rather, I worked from home - I was only supposed to go in from 8-12 with Joey - and it was horrible out this morning - so I said screw it - of course, I have been working for a couple of hours from here - so not really a day off.

My husband just went to get us some bagels and then he is off to work for the whole day - bummer.

We will finally get our tree on Sunday - our Charlie Brown Christmas Tree - I don't have the spirit at all this year for some reason.

I know I haven't been commenting much but Ihave been reading - so I know how everyone is doing. I have a few errands to run this afternoon - and then I am going to nap. Not too interesting.

Anyway, I hope everyone has a great weekend. Talk to you all soon.

My boy's Preschool Picture.....

Well, Here he is....my little man. I am not too thrilled with the flower background...but he does take a good picture. I don't know where he gets it from because my husband and I aren't photogenic (sp?) at all!!! He is such a little munchkin but I love him!

He is learning Christmas songs at school now - so he was singing them to me this morning on our way to school - the kid cracks me up!

Hope everyone has a good day.

Not too much to update here - it has been a slow and melancholy week. Last Saturday I went to the cemetary with my sister's and my mother - it was two years since Grandma has left us.

I went to the doctor last week - everything looks good - says I am carrying great - my next appointment is next Tuesday - I will be getting a sonogram - hopefully I will be able to post some pics if they come out clear enough.

Joey has a cold - so he has been a little out of sorts lately.

We bought a shed last night - should be delivered this weekend - then we can start clearing out the basement to make it a playroom - I am dreading that task - there is so much crap down there - my poor husband will have to do most of the work though!

Christmas is almost here - not really ready for it - I have presents for Joey - and my nephew - but that is it.

Next weekend I am taking Joey to a brunch with Santa Claus and then we are going to see "A Christmas Carol" at Theatre 3 in Port Jeff - maybe get our tree afterwards - hopefully it will be a nice day.

We are supposed to get a snow storm tonight - I hope it doesn't suck too bad - I love my 4 wheel drive.

I hope everyone is doing well - Ally and Jess - I hope you guys are ok - I know you mentioned you have some stuff going on lately.

Les - I hope your move goes well.

Chas - I am glad you had a good trip to Texas - hope you are feeling ok.

Jamie - love the website and the floors - hope you are doing well.

Jenna - I was sorry to hear about your miscarriage - I hope you are doing ok.

To everyone else - I hope all is well and that your holidays bring a little cheer.

Hopefully, I will update before Christmas.

Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

Happy Thanksgiving to Everyone!!!! I hope you all can find YOUR turkey!!!

Some pics and Giving Thanks.

Well, I have some pics - but not many - still haven't taken an updated belly pic - the last one was about 3 weeks ago and is a little blurry -

I feel like I am much bigger now - but I guess I will see when I get Joe to take another pic - Here I am about 22 weeks (I am 25 now). I have another pic of me sitting down, but Joe also got the bottom of my gi-normous boob in the shot - not something you all want to see.




Here is one of Joey on Halloween - As you can see he has already started smushing his makeup off - about 1/2 hour after this I had to clean his entire face off and just paint his little nose black with some whiskers - I also had to fix his droopy bow tie! LOL








I know I am really bad at updating - so let me say this now:

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!!!! I hope you and your family are doing well and have a great day. My list of things that I am thankful for:

1. My husband - we have had our rough patches and sometimes life can get the best of us - but I would still marry him today - even knowing what we would go through.

2. My beautiful little boy - I thank God everyday for my little miracle child - When I am pissy about the trivial stuff, I look at him and know that - whatever happens - Life is good and right.

3. These two beautiful babies growing inside of me - thanks to wonderful medical advances. I watch my belly grow and feel my stomach move and bump in awe. I can't wait to meet them - I love them so much already.

4. My family - my sisters, brothers, even in-laws - I am one of the luckiest people in the world - my family may be quirky and bitchy and even fucking crazy - but when the chips are down - I know that I can knock on any door and be let in - no questions asked. I love you all.

5. All of my online friends - especially the IPP - who have kept me sane through this incredible journey. I love you all and don't know what I would do without you.

6. Ally - my other pea in a pod - thanks for listening to my IM rants!

7. My best friend Kim - my cheap psychiatrist - her ear must feel like it is going to fall off sometimes.

8. My other best friend Sue - I may only see her once a month - but she keeps me grounded and cracks me up!

9. The roof over my head, the food in my belly, the clothes on my back. I may not own my house, or go to the finest restaurants or be wearing couture but I am warm and dry at night - which is alot more than alot of people.

10. My job - that it gives me the flexibility to go on paid maternity leave - see my son at his Thanksgiving Parade - or go to lunch with my husband. I may complain - but I work with great people who have respect for my family.


OK - that is my top ten list - I expect to see everyone's on their blog!!!!!!!

Have a great one!

Love,
Jenn

I am the worst blogger in the world!

OK, OK - I know I am the worst blogger in the world! I haven't updated in 10 days. So here is the scoop (or lack thereof)

****Joey News******

Joey is too much lately - he cracks me up every day. I guess it is because he is learning all these things and having different influences in Preschool. Here is just a sample:

(Going to my brother's house at night): "Mom, the moon sleeps during the day and wakes up at night right?"
Me: Yup!
Joey: "That means he is NocTURTLE"


"Mom, it is a full moon out - he must have eaten alot of dinner!"

At the diner, Joey was looking at those things that you put the quarter in and get a stupid toy:

Me: "Joey, don't even think about it"
Joey: "MMOOOOMMMM - I'm thinkin' about it!"

We were arguing over the remote:
Me: "Joe - you are not the boss"
Joey: "Well, when my brother and sister are born, Iwill be the boss of them!"

There is just a sample of my little pip - he is getting so big it breaks my heart sometimes. He got his pictures done for Preschool - they didn't come out that great but hopefully I will get them soon and be able to post.

I have a parent/teacher conference tomorrow morning - My God - it is Preschool people - get a grip!!

****Baby News ******

I went to the doctor last week - got a sonogram - everything is looking great - I am proud to say that Nicholas is hung like a yak! LOL Even the tech said "O My - he definately still is a boy! He is huge! I am giving you a picture of this!" OK, maybe it doesn't sound so professional but I have been going to this doctor for about 10 years.

Both babies are measuring about 1 1/2 pounds - Nicky is about 2 ounces bigger than the girl (yes, we still have not decided on a name for her yet!)

My doctor keeps telling me that he will want me to cut down on work after the first of the year - I haven't told my boss yet - I am just going to see how it goes. It is one thing if there is a medical reason for me to cut down my hours - but I don't just want to do it because that is his protocol - I will take it day by day - I only work 4 days now as it is - and I would like to take as much time as possible off after the babies are born - so we shall see.

I feel pretty good - I am starting to get uncomfortable - and big - but nothing too bad - I have been getting bad heartburn lately that nothing seems to help - bland foods, small meals - doesn't really matter but that is just par for the course.

The babies move around constantly now- it is really amazing that they have any room to do anything in there - but I think they are salsa dancing! LOL

****My husband****

My husband has been working his butt off - trying to get as much work in as possible before the babies are born - I miss him alot but I understand.

We actually went on a date last Friday - we ate dinner at this small Italian place and then saw Derailed - unfortunately we had to sit in the very first row which sucked big time - but it was nice to be out with him alone. He reverted back to the gentleman days - opening the door for me - holding my hand - very very nice.

****Living Situation*****

We have decided to stay in our tiny cramped house until at least the summer - we are making the basement a play room so all of Joey's toys will go down there - which will free up room. I know it isn't the most comfortable solution - but I am so paranoid to take on an added expense before I really know what my expenses will be when the babies are born - since we made the decision I have had less anxiety attacks - so I am sure it is the right decision.

**** My online friends*****

I have been reading all of the blogs....even if I don't comment very often - I usually read them from work so I don't have much time.

Ally: I am so happy that you got an offer on your house and I am sorry that AF fucked with you this month.

Jess: I was shocked to read about AF - I hope you are doing ok.

Lesley: It sucks when the kids are sick! I hope Ayden feels better soon and you get your living arrangements figured out.

Jamie: I am sorry that AF is toying with you this month - she is really a class A bitch. I can't wait to see pics of your floor.

Chas: Love the belly pics - congratulations on the 3rd trimester! I hope you have a great time in Texas.

Liz: I am sorry that your beta was negative - I hope you are doing OK.

Heather P: Great sono pics - I am glad your boy is doing so well - Great job!

Heather M: I am curious to see if your "boy" feeling turns out to be correct.

For anyone I missed: I hope you are doing ok!


Well, I guess that is it for now - I will make an effort to get my pics scanned/uploaded and post them! Talk to everyone soon!

Quick update...

Well, dinner is almost ready so I am going to try and do a quick update - not much is going on really - except I have been feeling a little overwhelmed lately with the twins coming. We were looking for a new place - and found the perfect one - but then I chickened out - I am so nervous that my husband will get slow or I will have to be out of work for longer than I planned that I talked my husband into staying in our tiny house until at least next summer - if not longer. I am just so paranoid to take on the extra expense of a bigger house when I don't know how much these little buggers are going to really cost!!!

SO - basically we are clearing out the basement and making it a playroom and the babies will share a room with Joey - which is fine with him because he didn't want to move anyway - and kept saying "the babies can sleep in my bed with me mom - we don't have to move. I also think that the twins are going to be such a big adjustment for him that I want to make as little changes as possible right now for him.

Work has been crazy - I feel like I have been waiting for the slow season for 4 years now - it is good though - I am hoping to get alot of my big stuff done before I go out on maternity leave.

My boss said that he will be paying me my full salary when I go out which is great - the only thing is he said he may not implement my raise until I come back - which, if I think about it, really pisses me off. The other girl I work with went out in March for the birth of her son and she got her full pay - not to mention that because of circumstances I only took 4 1/2 weeks maternity leave and she got the full 8 weeks - we will see what happens - too early to bitch about something that I can do nothing about.

Joey was Cat in the Hat for Halloween - I will try to upload the pictures soon - the hat was bigger than him! LOL Here is one pic of him in his Preschool Parade:




No - I didn't keep the hat like that - his teacher kept pushing it up - he didn't walk around like that on Halloween.

He had a good time though - so I guess that is all that matters. He got tired of trick or treating after about 10 houses - so that was good for me!




I also have some updated belly pics that I need to upload - I will try to take care of it later.

I guess that is it for now. I hope that everyone is doing well - I tried to comment on all blogs - hope I didn't miss anyone!

Have a great weekend!

Out of the mouth of Babes.....

SO.....I am at the grocery store with my son the other day - and I am trying to put the groceries on the belt - at the same time he is trying to squeeze by me so he can look at the candy. As he is trying to squeeze through - he hits my butt with his head - so THEN he said to me:

(Get ready)

"Mom, Your butt is getting bigger and bigger every day!"

He is SO lucky his mother has a sense of humor!!!!!!

It is official......

I am a super-sonic peeing machine....my life revolves around peeing - have to pee, am peeing, just peed. My children have found my bladder and decided to use it as a trampoline - and boy are they athletic!!!!

I have also decided that my unborn children are already pushy and spoiled. I lie on my left side and my son starts kicking up a storm, I lie on my right side and then my daughter has something to say about it, I lie on my stomach and FORGET IT - they are both pissed off!

So, your natural answer to me would be, so lie on your back right???? WELL, according to the baby books (which I pathetically read EVERY week) I CAN'T lie on my back because it decreases circulation or heart rate or something or other!!!!!!!!!!!!!

On another note, my son and I felt like total crap yesterday - he was couging and sniffling; I was sniffling with a sore throat. We stayed in our pajamas and in bed the ENTIRE day. We ate in bed, napped, watched TV. I have to say IT WAS FABULOUS!!!! It must have been allergies, because the Claritan was the only thing that helped him. He is feeling better now, so that is a relief!

I hope everyone is doing well. Talk to everyone soon.

Names

In answer to Jamie's question.........

Names, now there is a touchy subject! Before I knew what the babies were, we had names all picked out.....

Nicholas Henry for a Boy (Henry after my dad)
Hannah Rose for a girl (Hannah after Joe's mom Anna and Rose for my mom and grandmom)

BUT.....since I have found out that I am, in fact, having a boy and a girl, my husband and I have been at a total loss. Maybe, since I had been planning for SO long, I got bored with the names I picked out...maybe I wanted the picking of names to be new again....maybe I am just a psycho hosebeast that can't make up her mind! So here are the details of the ongoing debate.....


Boys Names:

Aaahh boys names, it is so hard to pick out a name for a boy - a bad name can result in endless playground torture, black eyes, pigeonholed into being a "nerd" or a "geek" or a "sissy boy". I want something strong, something that says "Don't fuck with me or you are going to get the whoop ass of your life."

Since I am not a millionaire, whose child will be privately tutored or attending a cushy boarding school in Switzerland, names like Preston, Biff, Riley, Aquinas, Ceasar, Logan, Parker etc are totally out.

I am also a fanatic about nicknames.....I like Thomas, but not Tom; I like Andrew, but not Andy; I like Richard - but not Rich and CERTAINLY not DICK!

So, my list (along with the pros and cons for each name) are as follows:

Nicholas Henry (My husband isn't crazy about Nicholas - but he likes Nicky - I like the way it will sound if my daughter says "You better back off or my brothers Joey and Nicky are going to kick your ass!)

Benjamin Henry (I like Ben - not so crazy about Benjamin - Husband doesn't like either)

Roman Henry (OK, I know this one is a little off to the side, and while we spent a couple of weeks really liking the name, we pretty much have decided that Roman is too out there for us - we will leave it with Debra Messing.)

Philip Henry (I like Philip - hate Phil. My grandfather's name was Philip, I think I like it better as a middle name, My grandfather was a big OTB gambler - don't think I want to pass that down.)

Andrew Henry (After a child my mom lost at about 6 months pregnant - Love the name Andrew, Like Drew, HATE Andy!)

Patrick Henry (Absolutely adore the name Patrick - it is probably one of my favorite boys names - unfortunately for me, it is also my brother's name, who hasn't started a family yet - I would feel bad taking his namesake from him!)

Disclaimer: I know the name "Henry" is pretty bad - pretty 1940's ish - but it IS my father's name and I like some sort of honorary thing going on with my kid's name. Too bad his name wasn't a better one - I could just name it after him - he will settle for a middle name though.)

So, basically, I think Nicholas is going to win by default - it has the least amount of Cons associated with it.

Girls Names:

OK - so girl's names are just as tricky - you don't want anything that sounds remotely sexual, or rymes with anything sexual or gross. You don't want a name that someone can put in a double meaning sentence
"Hey can I eat an 'Apple'?"
"Donna Do Ya Wanna?"
"Annie with the big Fanny"

Again, you also don't want to pigeon-hole her into something she isn't. You can't name your daughter "Trixie" and not expect her to be construed as the school tramp.

I had a dream a few weeks back, I dreamt that I was holding up my baby girl - over my head and singing "Sophia ~ Sophia". I woke up and told my husband "I think the girl's name is 'Sophia' " He said "Ok".
I went into the bathroom and started singing (to the tune of "Maria" from West Side Story) "Sophia ~ I just met a girl named Sophia". I came out of the bathroom and said to my husband "Maybe it isn't." At which time he groaned and pulled the pillow over his head.

So, the contenders for girls' names are:

Hannah Rose (So used to the name that I think I am bored with it, My husband has decided that he isn't crazy about it. I also don't like the way he says it - he says it like "Haynnah" )

Sophia Rose (I like this one. Joe thinks Sophia is an old lady's name but is getting used to it. We are just worried that she only has the choice of being two things.....That hot looking popular girl with the ethnic name (think Sophia Loren).....or the geek in the corner whose parents tried to glam her up but doesn't live up to her name's potential. We also don't want her to be nicknamed 'Sophie' which is a possibility.)

Isabella Rose (I like Isabella, and I like the nickname Bella, I don't like the nickname Belle or Izzy - Joe's answer is "You really like Isabella???????"

Elizabeth Rose (I like Elizabeth, I like Beth - but I knew an Elizabeth when I was growing up - She had a pig nose and walked like she had this big stick up her ass - she was also a big big bitch - can't get it out of my head.)

Emily Rose (Well, the recent movie just killed this name immediately).


So I think the real contenders are Hannah Rose or Sophia Rose.


Basically, the moral of this story is.....stick with your first names and don't drive yourself fucking crazy!!!!!

Have a good day everyone!

It's late....

But I will try to do a quick update.

Went to the Doctor's today - just a regular OB visit - he said that the babies sound great - he picked up there heartbeats pretty quickly - I didn't get the rates but my daughter's heartbeat is still slower than my son's. It is crazy how you can hear the difference.

My blood pressure is 112/70 - so that is good.

My doc said I am doing a great job - gaining the perfect amount of weight - I gained 5 lbs in the last three weeks - which for a single pregnancy, you are supposed to gain an average of 1lb per week - so I guess that I am doing ok - I have gained about 11 lbs since my first appointment at 10 weeks.

My next appointment is November 8th - I will get a sonogram that day.

Joey is doing well - he was so proud of himself today - for the first time ever he used scissors in school. He cut out the numbers 1-10 and then pasted them to a long sheet of paper - it is hanging in my Living Room right now! (No - his bedroom wasn't good enough - he wanted to hang it where everyone could see it!!!! )

I have to work all day tomorrow - total bummer - I was supposed to be off but, of course, major project with immediate deadline. - what else is new.

I have to go now - it is 10 minutes to 10 and I am so tired.

Ally - I didn't talk to you today - hope you are still doing well.
Lesley - It was so great reading your update - miss you girl!
Jaime - I hope you get more participants in your
engagement ring show - I will definately be watching!
Chas - so cool, feeling Samantha move - you are doing a great job!!
Jess - I hope those spiders get the heck out of there!!!
Heather P - Great belly pics!!!!
Heather M - Update on how you are feeling - you haven't updated in a week!!!
Liz - Good luck on this cycle - I will be keeping track!

To anyone not mentioned - have a great week - hope all is well!

Please say a quick prayer for Angelina ; She had triplets last week, but has developed an infection and isn't doing too well.


Oh - I found this interesting - it is the Social Security site and you can search what was the most popular names in the year that you were born. My mother SWEARS that "Jennifer" wasn't popular in 1973 - Well - it was the #1 name from 1970 to 1984!!!!! You know I sent her that link!!!!! LOL

Have a great day everyone!

I had PB&J and Vegatable Soup for Lunch.....

SO WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE HEARTBURN????????????????

By Popular Demand:

Here are my belly pics at 19 weeks - Joey wanted to "take a picture with the babies!

Don't mind Joey's underwear - if he is in the house, he is practically naked - he tells me "Mom, I want to be Nakey in my underwear!"

Confession Monday and What I learned this Week...

Well, I told a few of the ladies at TTCOAY that I would try to post on my blog on Confession Monday and 11 Sentence Wednesday, so here goes....

Confession Monday:

I confess that I am very tired today.

I confess that I have been stressing about alot of things and picking on my husband a bit.

I confess that I feel bad about it.

I confess that I started buying some clothes for the babies.

I confess that it is very weird buying pink and purple!

I confess that I already feel like my stomach is going to explode - and I am only 4 1/2 months.

I confess that I miss posting on TTCOAY but at least the women on the Twins Board are really nice - absolutely NO drama there! Thank Goodness.

I confess that I am nervous about how I will get paid during maternity leave if I have to cut down on work come the beginning of the new year.

I confess that I haven't told my boss about what the doctor said yet.

OK - I think that is it for confessions.

What I learned this week:

I learned that even if you pride yourself on being the type that can see the reason behind everything...sometimes, I just don't understand life.

I learned that I was having a boy and a girl.

I learned that one of the guys my husband is doing a job for is a real asshole!

I learned that "The Cat's Meow" is NOT a strip club!

That's it! Slow week I guess.

I hope everyone is doing well today. Hopefully I will talk to everyone soon.

My doctor's appointment

I went to the doctor today........................

Baby A - Is a Boy!!!!!!
Baby B - Is a Girl!!!!!

My son is so so excited.

I am still in shock!

Both babies are measuring at 17 1/2 weeks.....right on schedule!!!

I go back in 3 weeks on October 28th!

Gotta go back to work!!!

Two things

One: My husband felt the baby kick last night - he was so excited - hopefully Joey can feel it soon!!!

Two: Lesley - What is going on with your blog? Every time I try to access it, I get a message saying that I am not authorized to view - Is it something I said??????!!!!!!!

Hope everyone is doing well. I have my doc appointment tonight - hopefully the little buggers will cooperate and I will have some news for everyone!

Doc Appt yesterday

Well....no news on gender! At 1:00pm the office called me to let me know that my doctor would not be there and I would be seeing the Nurse Practitioner. When I asked about the sono, they said that there wouldn't be a technician there and I could re-schedule if I wanted to...I said screw it and went anyway.

So here are the stats:

Baby A - heartbeat 156
Baby B - heartbeat 148
Uterus - About the size of 20 weeks
Weight Gain - two pounds in two weeks - nurse said I was on track
Blood Work - All came back great
Blood Pressure - 110 over 60 (I think that is what it was - she said it was perfect)
Cervix - Long and Closed - Woo Hoo - no cerclage yet - I can still have real sex!
Next Appointment - September 28th at 5:30 pm - definately getting a sono so I will know what I am having then (if they cooperate)

The appointment took all of 15 minutes form walk in the door to walk out.


In other news:

My little man started Preschool on Tuesday!!! My God - he is getting so so big - it breaks my heart sometimes.

The way they do it is you pull up in front and they take your kid out of the car - no long drawn out goodbyes - nothing - I know, seems harsh right?

So we are in the car line and he is ok and then he said to me "Mom, I really liked my Old School"

Me: "Well, I know...but let's give this a shot...it probably is really fun!"

Joey: "But....I really liked my Old School"

So, of course, I thought that I was going to have a problem, but when we pulled up he got right out, said "Bye Mom" and went into school......The little shit didn't even look back once!!!!

I know I know...that means I am raising a well adjusted little boy, secure enough that I will come back for him, confident to try new things on his own....yadda yadda yadda blah blah blah.....He didn't look back once!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then to add insult to injury....he cried when I came to pick him up because he wanted to play on the playground for a little bit. Too much!!!

Finally...

While Joey was at school yesterday, I went Maternity clothes shopping...I bought 3 pairs of work pants, a skirt, two pairs of jeans, 3 sweaters, a t-shirt. I also bought 3 pairs of sweatpants for Joey, a sweat shirt and a Sony Play Station game for my husband.....$205 bucks later!

I needed clothes though.....nothing really fits anymore and I am always so uncomfortable... I couldn't take it. I went to Target....Have you seen the prices of maternity clothes at specialty stores????? So what I have left over from Joey, what I have bought so far and clothes from my Best Friend - I should be set ..... unless I get so big that I have to go out and get mu mus!



So that is my update. I am going to try to comment on blogs now (I am at work...so bad, I know!)

Have a good day everyone!

Not much to say

Well, I don't have much of an update. I am feeling better every day....the sickness is pretty much gone - I get about 5 minutes or so after I eat but absolutely NOTHING to Complain about.

I have been feeling the little ones move a couple of times a day - usually an hour or so after I eat - so that is exciting!

I have been working alot - I know it is early but I am trying to get a jump on all of my end of year work because - to hear EVERYONE tell it - I will be on bed rest sooner than I think. I don't know what it is about reproduction - whether it be trying to get pregnant, dealing with infertility, or actually being pregnant - but everyone and their mother's uncle think they should give you advice......If I want it - I will ask for it!

Joey is being so cute - it is amazing what a 3 1/2 year old (O my God - almost 4 - he will be 4 years old in less than 3 months!) can understand. Every morning he wakes up, come over to me and says "Morning Mama" and then bends to my belly and says "Good morning babies" - then in a squeeky voice says "Good morning Joey" like he is the babies talking!

I am a little upset - Joey has said that he will share both my husband and I with the babies - but when we ask if he will share his Uncle Pat he laughs and says "NNNOOOOOOOO!" I guess I know where I rate on the food chain! LOL

Well, my cable connection is broken for my camera - so instead I will post some pictures of the little man - He has grown so much!!!

Here he is about 3 months on his Christening DAy:


Here he is wrestling with his daddy! What a fierce Creature (don't you love the tighty whiteys?)

This is Joey's first Halloween....We had to put the makeup on him while he was alseep - about 1 hour later his whole face was grey!

He was about 3 or 4 months here - just hanging out on the chair!

Here is Joey on his tree swing - notice what he is sitting on? That is right - it is a spackle bucket - that is my husband - resourceful to the end - not for nothing but HE LOVED that SWING!!! LOL

I hope everyone has a Great day.

Pictures

Baby B's Profile: THis is very hard to see - his head is on the left and his arm is up. Baby B is always harder to see because he is set back a bit.

Baby B's Face - head to the left - very hard to see - left hand by face.






This is Baby A's Profile - head to the left arm up in the air.



Baby A: Face is on the right side of the picture:

Doctor's Appt. Today

I had my doctor's appointment today and my sonogram. Both babies are measuring at exactly the right size (13 weeks 4 days)!

She tried to find out the sex. First she said that if she had to say, she would say that A is a girl.
Then she moved over to B who wasn't cooperating....at the last minute she said that she might see something and B might be a Boy....THEN, she moved BACK over to A and said "Oh Wait - I think I may see something here - A might be a boy....You know what? I just really can't tell right now....next time it will be easier!"So...I still don't know - but that is ok!

I got two face shots of the babies. B is always so much harder to see than A so I have all these great pictures of A and just fuzzy pictures of B. A's heartbeat was 148, B's heartbeat was 142.

My uterus is measuring at around 18-20 weeks so she said I was right on target.

More good news - my right ovary is down to normal! My left ovary still has a few cysts but they decreased by half. My next appointment is in two weeks and the Doc will check my cervix to make sure I don't need a cerclage put in.


Ally - I hope your appointment goes well - you are still probably in there (it is 9:40am your time). I will be on IM until 4ish your time so let me know!

7 Things - per Jenna's Request

7 Things to do before I die:

1. Raise independent Well adjusted children.
2. Get really really Old - but not senile or immobile
3. Watch my children fall in love and get married
4. Go to Ireland
5. Meet all of my IPP friends
6. Get my Master's degree
7. Teach at a college or University


7 Things I can do:

1. Sit for hours and read a book - for me it is almost like watching a movie.
2. Sleep
3. Some people say I can sing - but I don't think very well.
4. Math - pretty good with numbers
5. Cook
6. Speak my mind
7. I know all the words to the songs on NOggin and can sing "Clap Hands" in Italian.


7 Things I can't do:

1. Sing or say anything besides "Clap Hands" and Curse words in Italian - or any other language.
2. Science - can't stand it!
3. Play an instrument
4. Hold a Grudge
5. Do a Back Hand Spring
6. Be fake
7. Curl my tongue (you know - make it a U shape)

7 Things that attract me to the opposite sex:

1. Sense of Humor
2. Sense of Humor
3. Hot Ass
4. Sense of Humor
5. I hate to admit it - but a little bit of a bad boy
6. Hair - I like good hair
7. Body Type - I like bigger stocky guys - I like to feel like a girl around my man!


7 Things I say most often:

1. Fuck
2. You eat a pound of dirt before you die
3. Fuck
4. I'm Tired - I want to Nap
5. Fuck
6. I'm Hungry
7. Did I mention - Fuck?


7 Celebrity Crushes:

1. LL Cool J
2. Aiden Quinn
3. John Taylor from Duran Duran
4. Used to crush on Brad Pitt - now, not so much
5. Used to crush on Ben Affleck - now, not so much
6. George Clooney is one Sexy Man
7. Jennifer Aniston - I'll admit it - I would turn for a night - LOL

7 people I want to do this:

1. Ally
2. Lesley
3. Jess
4. Jamie
5. Chas
6. Heather
7. Liz


Have a good day everyone and a nice weekend!

I think.....

I may have felt the babies move yesterday when I was driving home. I am not 100% sure but I felt something a little wierd. Then again last night I felt something while I was lieing down. I am only at 13 weeks (I felt Joey at 18 weeks) but I know that subsequent pregnancies, plus having twins, you can start feeling it early.

I really hope I feel it again today - if I do then I will know that it definately was the babies and I didn't just need to go to the bathroom!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I hope everyone is doing well!

Idiosynchrasies (I know that is spelled wrong!)

OK - Les tagged me - so here they are. Most of my issues are with food. About 10 years ago, I took a Food Manager's course - that was it for me.

1. I hardly ever, if ever, eat leftovers - I try but it just doesn't happen. I can manage to eat pasta left over - and sometimes Chicken - but definately no beef!

2. If I bring a cold cut sandwich to work, I have to wrap my bread separately from my cold cuts. I even have to put plastic in between the ham, salami and cheese. The thought of my bread touching my meat all day before I eat makes me want to puke!!!

3. I CAN'T Clean out my fridge - that is strictly my husband's job - I feel like I have to run to the bathroom when I do it - Thankfully my husband doesn't mind doing it at all - so that is his job.

4. I can't drink milk on the day "sell by"- even if it is still good - I just can't do it.

5. I am fanatical when preparing any food with eggs - even cake batter - I wash and re-wash my hands, the utensils - everything. I freak out if my son goes ANYWHERE near raw egg. I eat my eggs scrambled WELL - there needs to be some browning of the eggs before I will eat it.


I know - I have serious issues! LOL Have a good one everybody!

Coming back to the land of the living....

Well, I feel like I am approaching the land of the living finally! I have been so sick and tired lately - the worst part is - no REAL puking - just dry heaves and nausea - which sometimes is worse! Then I got a bad cold which I couldn't take anything for - thankfully I am over the cold and the pukiness seems to be going away - or at least isn't that bad!

I am officially in my 2nd trimester!!!!! Woo Hoo!!!! It has gone by so quickly - Thank the Lord!

My next Doctor appointment is the 30th. I am not sure if I will be getting an Ultrasound - if I do it is possible that they will be able to see the sex of the babies - I am getting VERY excited - I can't wait to start buying things!!!!!

Another good note: I finally had REAL sex last night!!!! I know, I know - TMI but I haven't been able to have sex all first trimester because of #1 the gigantic ovaries ("don't over-exert yourself") and then when that went down a little I was on progesterone 2 - 4 times per day - not very sexy - and I know you know what I mean!!

I was alot more relaxed because I was out of the first trimester - I know I am paranoid and all - but oh Well. NOw I have to get in as much as possible because it is possible that they may put a cerclage (sp?) in a few weeks - depending upon my cervix (multiples has a risk of incompetent cervix - that coupled with my cone biopsy two years ago and my risk is moderate to high). Once the cerclage is in - that's it - no more sex again.

I tell you I feel like a NEW WOMAN!!!!!! LOLOLOLOL

Ok - so a few words to my ladies:

Jamie - I know you are feeling down this month - this was only the first month of the magic monitor and (I know you know this) but you only had TTC sex hours after the 2nd peak day. Give the monitor two more months -

Jess - I know you are getting overwhelmed with the new house - I hope the closing and the move go smoothly - when your next bambino comes you will have that much more room - Good luck to you.

Lesley - I know you too have been down - the medical community issue in Australia seems like it would be very frustrating for even the most laid back person. I know it is hard to see other women getting pregnant when you have been trying longer. I want to say "Don't worry - it is going to happen for you" but I know how frustrating and empty those words can sound. Please know that I think about you often and I do have faith that it is going to happen for you. Ayden WILL be a big brother.

Ally - Woo Hoo!!! You are now annointed Oozy McPreggo II !!!! I am so happy for you that I can't even explain it - I can't wait to hear about every step of your pregnancy!

Chas - I am so happy that you are still feeling so good - it is the most exciting thing in the world - Have you bought anything good yet? Give us some pictures of the belly!!!!!

Liz - I am praying that your numbers start doubling.

Heather - Great pictures of the belly!!!


To all others - I hope everyone is doing well - I have been trying to keep up with reading the blogs even if I haven't been responding too well to PW and blogs.

That is it - thought it would be quick but I guess it wasn't - Have a great day everyone!

A BIG FAT CONGRATULATIONS TO.......

ALLY!!!! CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR LITTLE BEAN (OR TWO!) I KNEW THIS WAS IT FOR YOU! I AM SO HAPPY- WHAT A GREAT PHONE CALL THIS MORNING!!!!!!

I WISH YOU A HAPPY UNEVENTFUL LONG PREGNANCY!!!!!!

quick update

Well, I know I have been the worst blogger and commenter (sp?) lately. I have been feeling pretty sick lately and tired. Basically I go to work and then sit my ass on the couch all night. I thought the nausea had passed on Friday night - I worked a 9 hour day - had a whole chicken parm hero for lunch - went food shopping - cooked steak, broccoli, rice, salad for dinner, cleaned the whole kitchen, folded and put away laundry - I had such a burst of energy - I told my husband I must be turning the corner.

Saturday hit and I felt barfy all over again - left work early - slept most of the day - went to my nephew's birthday cake where I was greeted with "God - you look tired" and "Do you feel ok? You are very pale" So I am not quite at the corner yet.

I have another birthday party at 3pm today - hopefully I will be out of there early.

I have been trying to keep up with everyone's progress lately.....

Lesley's rash, Ally's IUI, Jamie's Monitor Madness, Jess' scope, Chas' oops I have a wedding THIS weekend, LIZ' knocked up status....I just haven't really commented too much and I am sorry.

I go for an appointment on Tuesday - another sonogram and hopefully I will get to hear the heartbeat - we shall see.

I am officially past the previous miscarriage date - and I have started feeling good about this pregnancy.

We told Joey last weekend and he said "See mom - I told you there were two babies in your belly!"

I let him tell the rest of my family at yet another birthday celebration on Monday - he went up to my whole family (they were all sitting together) and said "Hey - guess what? My mom has TWO babies in her belly!" All of them just stared at him for a good 20 seconds - probably thinking "Did he just say what I think he said? Do we congratulate her or will she break out crying because we misunderstood him?"

Slowly they all turned around to me and I just smiled and nodded my head - needless to say they all screamed - my mom cried and my dad just looked at me and laughed. It was so nice relaying good news for a change. My mom was a tiny bit upset about being kept in the dark so long (especially since I out and out lied to her about being pregnant) but she understood why I kept it under wraps.

So now everyone knows - two weeks earlier than I had planned on telling them - but I am staying positive. I think I have mentioned this before but I told my husband "Regardless of what happens with these babies - this will be the last time I am pregnant - for good or bad - so I am making the decision to enjoy it - not to proceed so scared and nervous - I am going to embrace my big fat belly."(Believe me - it is getting big already! I am like the size I was at 16 weeks with Joey)

Well, I am off to Target now - nothing like waiting until the last minute to shop for a birthday gift!

I hope everyone is doing well and everyone gets good and knocked up this month!!! Good luck to all - I will update on Tuesday after my sonogram.

Uh Oh

I went to facade and asked the following questions:

1. Are the twins the opposite sex? Answer - No
2. Are the twins both boys? Answer - No
3. Are the twins both girls? Answer - Yes

LOL - my husband is going to shit - he says the babies are both boys! LOL

Quick Updated Pictures

Well - both beans are measuring at 8 weeks 6 days - in Baby A's picture you can actually see the little arm and leg buds forming - Baby B was sideways so you can't see it on his.

Here is Baby A:

Here is Baby B:

Hope everyone has a great day!

Still Queesy

Well, I am still queesy - the feeling didn't go away at all yesterday and has been with me all morning so far. I am a little happy about it because it makes me feel like things are right on track. I am just worried that it is going to get so bad that it will interfere with work - and since noone there knows about this - and I don't want to tell them for at least another 4 weeks (if possible) I am hoping that the nausea is manageable - we shall see.


Joey had his separation class yesterday - he did so well - I know that the fact that he can go into the class - kiss me goodbye - and be fine for an hour and a half in a classroom setting means that I raised a good well adjusted child - yadda yadda yadda blah blah blah - It still gives me an ache in my heart that he doesn't want to stay right by my side - is that silly? I know though that this class was the right thing to do considering that he starts Preschool in September - that will definately be a hard day for me! Not looking forward to that.

I am happy to see all the BFPers are feeling good. I hope their pregnancies continue to go smoothly!

Well - this wasn't a long post - I am going to lie down for a little while - my husband is home so I get a little break - Woo Hoo!

Talk to everyone soon!

Trying to post pictures one more time

If this doesn't work - I will have to wait until I get home....

If I can draw your attention.....

TO THE TICKER AT THE TOP OF THE PAGE - LOOKS LIKE I HAD TO CHANGE IT BACK - I AM HAVING TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE DOCTOR EVEN GAVE ME A DAY FOR THE C-SECTION - AS LONG AS EVERYTHING GOES SMOOTHLY I WILL DELIVER ON FEBRUARY 15TH - WHICH IS MY HUSBAND'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!

I AM STILL SHAKING!

Not moving appt. up

I am going to keep my appointment as is - so tomorrow at 9:45. I didn't move it up for a couple of reasons:

1. I am only having 2-3 attacks a day - and they aren't as intense and don't last as long as they were.
2. The rest of the day is just really a dull ache - a pain that I can handle.
3. I know there is nothing he can do for me anyway so what is the point?


I spent the ENTIRE day in bed yesterday with my son and husband - had a good old fashioned Veg out day - I should have been doing laundry - but I didn't - it felt so nice! Now I am backed up on housework - but who cares!!!

I hope everyone had a nice weekend!

In Pain

OK - I may be bumping up my next doctor's appointment. I am having so much pain on my left side from these cysts. Three nights ago I woke up with a bad stabbing pain in my back and stomach - it lasted about 15-20 minutes then went away. I discussed it with my doc and he said the pain is because of the humongous ovaries putting pressure on everything.

Well, all day long it hurt - on and off - but each time it came back it was a little worse. I left work early and went home to bed - every hour or so (maybe more) - the pain would start again - it begins as a dull ache and then goes to little needles - then to an ice pick - it lasts anywhere from 5-15 minutes then goes away.

Yesterday it wasn't as bad so I went to work - I was a little achy but ok - so stupid me decided I was ok enough to go on the office trip (my boss took us to dinner and then a play out in the Hamptons) - Big Mistake - between the ride to the hamptons, sitting in the restaurant and then sitting in the theatre - I was in total pain again last night - Thank God two of the people I work with went in my car - Peter drove home and I was able to lie down in the back seat.

I was ok through most of the night and then got another attack at around 4am - now I am just achy again - I leave today at 3 and I plan to spend the rest of the weekend in bed or on the couch. I am not sure if I am going to be able to go through this much pain every day for the next 12-15 weeks (which is how long my doc said it could take for the cysts to disappear) but really what choice do I have? They can't aspirate because of the baby - and surgery would also put the baby in jeopardy. I can't take alot of time off from work because I will be taking 8 weeks (totally paid mind you) once the baby is born.

I think I may do more short days - or try to do some more work at home so that I can rest up a bit. My doctor's appointment is on Tuesday - I will see how tonight and tomorrow goes and decide if I will go in on Monday instead.

Sorry this is a downer post - I am just venting because I am sitting here and my back is burning!!!!


On a good note:


CONGRATULATIONS HEATHER ON YOUR BFP!!!!! WAY TO GO!!!!

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

sick sick sick

Well, I am six weeks and 2 days and I think morning sickness has started - all day yesterday I was nauseous (sp?). I tried to eat a nutrigrain bar and got half way through and started gagging.

I had pasta for lunch - right after I was feeling sick - but still feeling hungry!

Dinner - I had been so in the mood for chinese food - well, apparently the baby doesn't like Chinese because halfway through I had to push my plate away and lay down.

This morning - still nauseous. It isn't the debilitating (again sp?) type - I can do stuff - but I just have that gross feeling in my stomach all the time! I am a little happy about it though - hopefully it is a good sign that things are on the right track!

Hope everyone is doing well.

Jamie - I am so sorry for the BFN - this really sucks.
Lesley - Woo Hoo - a full week!!!!
Ally - Where have you been???
Jess - What cycle day are you on anyway? You are very calm this cycle!!!! LOL
Heather - I can't wait to hear an update on you!
Chas - The heartbeat is an amazing sound isn't it? Congratulations!
Jenna - I hope you feel better soon - what happened with the Support Group you were going to start?
Liz - Holy Medications Batman!!!

To everyone else - I hope you are all doing well! Talk to everyone soon!

My sonogram

Well, as of right now there is only one bean growing in there....however, he saw another black spot in my uterus that said it can POSSIBLY be another sac or more likely a uterine fibroid. So I will be changing my ticker to one - for now!

But........

I SAW THE HEARTBEAT!!!!!!! We couldn't hear it yet but the doctor told me that we should be able to hear it the next time - hey do you know with the vaginal ultrasound they can turn on the sound and hear the heartbeat!!! He said he couldn't measure the rate but it looked to him around 140 - I told Joe - It's another Boy! LOL My son told me - "Mommy, if we have a boy baby that wouldn't make me very happy!" What a little man.

My progesterone level was over 30.5 which is down a little from last week (because I went from 4 x per day to 2 x per day but still is an acceptable level). My HCG level was over 5000 - when I asked her about the doubling every 72 hours (Last week my level was 2928) she said that once the level is over 5000 they just say that it is "over 5000" they don't give an actual number. A level of 5000 is still on the high end for my week.

I don't have a scanner home - but once I go back to work on Monday I will scan the sonogram picture and post it.

I have to go back on the 14th for another sonogram and bloodwork and I have an appointment with my regular OB on the 19th.

That's it for now!

No big deal Update

Well, it is July 5th and nothing new to report as far as baby wise. I go on Thursday for my sonogram - I am nervous and excited - I am nervous that my cysts have not decreased in size and I am excited that I may be able to find out how many beans are cooking.

My 4th of July was nice - I went to my sister's house - she has a big party every year with fireworks and everything - they men light the fireworks off in the front and the women and all the kids sit in the backyard and watch - their neighbors were lighting them off as well so it was a pretty good show (though my brother in law was disappointed that he could only get 1 1/2 inch mortars instead of 3")

I wasn't feeling the greatest - my stomach was bothering me - I was having a little bit of cramping and as always - the gas pains - I also was in a bummed out mood because I had to go shopping in the morning for clothes - because everything is uncomfortable because of the bloating - I went up 2 sizes! So needless to say - I was feeling pretty crappy - especially with a bunch of young girls in little skirts running around.

It was nice seeing my Aunts though and having my whole family together.

My brother is coming home at the end of July! I can't wait. Anthony is in the Army and he got his orders to go to Afghanistan so every second with him counts right now. At first he was supposed to leave in September, then they pushed it back to January, then March - now they are talking about pushing it back until June of 06 - personally - they can't push it back far enough - it is getting volatile all over again over there - and he is going to the Afghan/Pakistan border - right where all of the violence has been taking place. I pray that things start calming down before he has to leave. He is my baby brother, he has a wife and three boys and I am so scared for all of them.

I can't wait to see the boys - they are getting so big! and they are so so cute!!

Here's Anthony:



Here is Kayden:



And finally - here is Aaron:



Aren't they cute???

What else: Hmm - I am on vacation until next Monday!! Woo Hoo - even though I still check and respond to my emails and any calls I get - the one thing that sucks about having so much responsibiity - you are never truly on Vacation!

I just finished The Guardian by Nicholas Sparks - pretty good book.

I am now reading Life Expectancy by Dean Koontz.

I am also still trying to get through the 3rd book in the Stephen King's gunslinger series - but for the life of me I can't bring myself to care what happens at the end of the book - my boss says to stick with it because the subsequent books are alot better - We shall see!

That is pretty much it for me - I will update again on Thursday after my Sonogram! Hope everyone had a great 4th of July!

So for those of you that read and aren't also members of PW (which there are all of none of you) - click the link for my update.

My Sonogram and Doctor Appointment Update


Basically, I am just taking it easy. Trying to eat right and relax - that is it. I am a little nervous that there are issues already at 5 weeks but I am trying to be optimistic. My levels were really good and they decreased my progesterone so that is a good sign. Right? Isn't it??

Maybe it was irresponsible of us to go ahead with the IUI when I had so many follicles but I believed in my heart that this was our last shot - I knew I would get pregnant this time around so we moved forward anyway. I hope that I just didn't set myself up for a huge disappointment.

Well, that is it really - everything is status quo. I don't really feel sick today just tired.

I also can happily report that - like my pregnancy with Joey - I have no real desire for junk food - it is amazing how our body works - it automatically knows what it needs. I have had a bagel with a little bit of cream cheese, chocolate milk (I can't stand regular milk), and a decaf coffee for breakfast. For lunch I had a salad and a slice of whole wheat bread - and I just snacked on potatoes and carrots that I stole from the pot roast that is cooking. With my son Joe - I just wanted Meals - I hardly ate any junk - I just didn't want it - Hopefully this trend will continue.

Hope everyone is doing well. Chas - I hope your appointment goes well today!

I FEEL SICK!

Hello everyone

First I want to say Thanks to everyone who have been so supportive - especially my IPP gals!!!

Do you like my license plate? Thanks Ally!

Well, not much to tell on the how I am feeling front - I am tired - I usually take a small nap everyday (when possible) and if not then I go to sleep early.

Not much else to speak of -which I KNOW I am only 4 weeks and 4 days - but makes me a little nervous.....I wish I wrote down exactly when I started feeling symptoms with Joey so I wouldn't be so paranoid!

I am so anxious for my sonogram Thursday, even though I know they will only be able to see the sac and not the actual baby! It took everything I had not to change the appointment to today!!!

I hope everyone is doing good!!!

Update

Well, I am officially pregnant - Thank the good Lord!

I go for my sonogram on Thursday - I had the choice of Tuesday or Thursday but I wanted to give the bean a little more time to grow (I know - two days isn't a long time).

Symptoms:
My boobs are a little sore.
I am really tired.
And get this - I can't Poop!!! I know, I know, Too much information but my belly looks like I am 5 months pregnant instead of 4 weeks!!! Any helpful hints would be appreciated!

I have told only a few people so far:

1. My best friend Kim.
2. Her boyfriend and our assistant Peter.
3. All the IPP
4. PW
5. My friend Sue - and get this - she is pregnant too - I am doing the very beginning of March and she is due mid February! We will be going to the same hospital as well - wouldn't that be something if we end up in the hospital together!!!


I am a little nervous about how the pregnancy will progress but I guess that is normal considering my history. I am trying to do everything right - cutting out 95% of the caffeine - taking my vitamin - eating right - it is all I can really do. I don't know if I will ever really relax completely but I am making sure that I enjoy this pregnancy for every second I have it.

My husband is spoiling me - so that is a definate perk!!!!

I will definately be waiting until I hit the 8 week mark before I tell anyone - and I will try to wait until after the first trimester if that is possible, so you will all have to put up with my ramblings about it here.

I am so happy that the IPP is finally getting the pregnancies we deserve - Ally, Lesley, Jaime & Jess - within the next two months all four of you will be pregnant - we are going to be the big fat Pregnant IPPs!!!!

Jenna you are being so good to your friend's babies - you are just setting up there mom's to spoil yours!!! Hope you are doing ok!


Hope everyone is doing well - Heather & Chas - give us an update!

Talk to everyone soon!!!

THE TICKER STAYS!!!!!!!

starting to get a little discouraged

Well, I am not feeling any real symptoms today - and my husband and Ally both believe I am not pregnant - probably because I have always had some type of symptom by now. I am holding out hope because both Heather and Chastity have said that they are not feeling any symptoms and we know that they are good and pregnant.

I was speaking with Ally and she thinks that I should give the IUI with injectibles another two tries - but I really have no desire to go through this again for next two months - I know it can be considered giving up - and I know that most people have been through way more than me for way longer than me - but I am just tired of the whole process now.

I am tired today - my son had a bad night last night - nightmares - so I am hoping he will let me take a nap when I get home! Thankfully, today is my short day!

Well, that is really it - Father's day was uneventful - I will update again after I take my test on Wednesday.

Have a good one everybody!

So How am i feeling?

Unfortunately, no real symptoms to speak of...my boobs still hurt but they have been hurting since before I ovulated b/c of the gonal f.

I am tired - but it is because I haven't been sleeping too well.

My stomach was really really tender for a few days and my doc said that if it gets worse (which it isn't - it is actually getting better) or if I develop any other symptoms, then I need to call him b/c I could have ovarian hyperstimulation - I did have 9 follicles after all.

No nausea or anything - but I really didn't have that for my other two pregnancies either. It is still really early to feel real symptoms yet. I am waiting for the exhaustion to set in - that with my boobs hurting was always my first clue - even before AF was due.

I have been cramping but that is from the progesterone - I had to go for blood yesterday for a progesterone check and they said it was borderline - 11.5 - my doc likes the level to be up around 15 - so guess what? They doubled my dose. I have to shove that stuff up my cooch 4 times a day now - I actually had to bring some to work with me because I have to do it here - Thank God this is a small office and they all know what I have been going through.

I have enough suppositories to last me until next Saturday - by then I will know if it is positive or negative and whether or not I will need to get a refill - what a pain in the ass.

Other than that - just getting ready for Father's day - my son and I are making cupcakes tonight for my husband (he already got his power washer yesterday) and a picture for Joe's Dad from the baby. We are having a bar-b-que at Joe's sisters' house tomorrow to celebrate with his dad.

I gave my dad 4 tickets to Sunday's yankee game - my boss had 4 extra - lol - I am buying the train tickets and the metro card for him - Happy Father's Day!

What is everyone else doing?

I hope everyone is doing well - I have to catch up on the blogs - so I will comment on everyone's soon - sorry I am such a slacker!

Now As per Ally's Request....

As you can see, and as ordered by Ally, I have again posted a ticker this month. I even got really ballsy and posted it with twin babies - How is that for OPTIMISTIC?????

Now, let's pray that I don't need to take the ticker down - lots of prayers - I am getting really hopeful this month and it is scaring the crap out of me!

Have a good day ladies!

Phantom Symptoms

OK - so here we go - 4dpIUI and already the analysis begins! I am so pathetic!!!

Well, my boobs are killing me - but I know it is from the Gonal-F and not from a potential pregnancy since:
1. If I was pregnant, implantation most likely hasn't even taken place yet!
2. My boobs were killing me before I even ovulated - so give it up Jenn!


The only other thing I am feeling right now is VERY VERY bloated and tender in my lower abdomen - it almost feels like - and again, skip over this part if you gross out easily - like huge gas pains in my stomach - like if I just could let a really big one go then I would be fine!!!!!

So that is it for me - still continuing on the Progesterone twice a day (Gross)!

I go for a Progesterone Check on Friday and then the Blood Pregnancy Test the following Friday. I think I will be taking a FRED on the 22nd - so that means only 8 more days to go!

Hope everyone is doing well!

As per Jess' request....

OK - sorry I have not updated - alot going on lately.

So here is my update....I went to the doc on Thursday and I had NINE follicles sized 13-18mm. Since I had so many my doctor told me that I should consider canceling the cycle since I have a 15-20% chance of having 3 or more with so many follicles!

I went home and talked it over with my husband, who promptly told me "We have come this far, and after everything you have been through, we are not canceling this cycle - we said this was it - let's do it!"

Me: "uh ok, if you are sure - because if I have a 15-20% chance of 3 or more then the chance of twins has to be around 40-50% (although I didn't ask my doc about this)"

Joe: "So, if we have 3 or 4 then we just go bankrupt - no big deal!!"

Me: "OK then - let's do this"

- I called my doctor and Joe gave me the Ovidrel trigger shot at 10:30am.

First IUI was on Friday - it had been awhile since Joe and I had danced - the day of the IUI is supposed to be from 2-7 days since his last "release".

Well, I kind of lied (no kind of about it - I lied). It had been 8 days, but I put that it was only 7 - I figured with 9 follicles it would have been ok.

Wouldn't you know it - Joe had (ok alert - going to be VERY CRUDE HERE)

(LAST CHANCE -HERE IT COMES)

(OK - Don't say I didn't warn you!)

Joe had a banner fucking load that morning apparently, because all of his levels were way above average. That first IUI they injected 18.6 MILLION sperm into me!!!! HOLY SHIT! Even the doctor said "This is a very good specimin!" So when I have 9 follicles is when Joe decides to step up to the plate !

2nd IUI was on Saturday - the specimin was back down to just average (since he had the 4th of July the day before) and there was only 6.2million on Saturday. So in total, I have had 24.8 million sperm inside me looking for 9 eggs! Basically - if I am not pregnant this month, then I am never getting pregnant!

Now I am going to tell you something that probably reflects bad on me - but Hey we are all honest here in blogland!

Since I had so many follicles, I felt so full for about 3 days - it feels like you have a bunch of really big gas bubbles in your abdomen (sp?) and it is kind of crampy.

So the day of the first IUI, he said "you are going to feel some pressure from the speculum"

He inserted the speculum and I was like (not out loud) "Hey, that doesn't feel so bad - it kind of relieves the pressure!" Of course, I didn't tell my doctor that - he would have looked at me like a freak - and on Saturday it went back to being totally uncomfortable - but hey - want to give you the whole experience.

SO....I started progesterone yesterday, I will go for a check at the end of this week, and a blood test around the 23rd or 24th - I will probably take a FRED on the 22nd - so we are just 9 short days away from the results!



As a side note....what the fuck is up with PW????? What a pain in the ass! Have a good one everybody!

cd9 update

went to doc this morning....I have a 13mm and an 11mm on the left side and an 11mm on the right - in addition to alot of small follicles - which is because of the PCOS.

I take two more nights of the 150iu and then go back for sonogram on Wednesday to see if it is time for the shot - If I get the shot on Wednesday, then IUI will be on Thursday and Friday - so I will know if it worked by the 24th of June.

I am so tired of this process...I just can't wait for it to be over - for good or bad - I hope everyone is doing well.

Bye

And now....for an update on my follicles

How sad is this....my life so revolves around trying to conceive that the only thing I have to write about is the status of my follicles - could I be any more pathetic?????

So - here is the update.....

I have 3 growing on the left...two are measuring at 9mm and one is at 8mm. I only have one growing well on the right - and she is at 8mm. So we shall see what happens.

I continue at the 150iu tonight and tomorrow and then I go for another sono and blood work on Monday morning. I am so tired....I never get to sleep anymore!!!!

Hopefully this cycle will be coming to a close soon - I will be on cd9 on Monday - I am not sure if that is too early for the shot.....or for them to grow significantly.....I only have enough gonal-f for tonight and tomorrow anyway - so hopefully I don't need to get another script!

well - that is my update - I am leaving work in a few minutes - I have been so busy all day - but really - when am I not busy - I need to hit the Lotto.........Bad!

Have a good one everyone!

Upping my dose

Well, doc just called - they increased my gonal-f dose from 75 to 150 - I have to go back for a sonogram on Saturday!

I hope this does the trick and I have big fat follicles on Saturday - I will only be on cd7 so I am not really sure how that works - if I could get the hcg shot so early. At the 150 level, I will only have enough meds to last me two more days (Saturday and Sunday Night) and then I will be out of the gonal - so many things to think about.

Just think....this time in 3 weeks I will be pregnant! How is that for optimism??????

Hope all is well in blogland - I will try to comment on everyone tonight!

Up and Down Day

What an up and down day. Today is Jennie's little boy's funeral....what a horrible thing to have to go through. I can't even imagine how she feels and my thoughts and prayers go out to her.

Chas got her long awaited BFP!!! What exciting news that is....I had such a feeling that she was pg.....but us in the IPP hate giving out false hope so we try to hold back! I pray that she has a long uneventful pregnancy! Way to go Chas!!!

I am still very excited for Heather as well - I can't wait to find out how many beans she has cooking in there!

I hope that Chas and Heather have started an IPP trend!

I started my shots two days ago - the first shot didn't go super smooth - some blood ended up in the vile of meds but my doc said that I could still use it. Last night's shot went much smoother - my husband sure has the hang of it....I think he enjoys sticking me with all the grief I have been giving him since being on the hormones!

I go for my first U/S tomorrow to see how the Gonal-f is working and if I need to increase the dosage. I really hope this medication works - I am praying that 3rd time is a charm....let's keep the IPP pg ball rolling!!!!

I can't wait for Ally to sell her house so I can beat her ass out of her pessimistic streak she has going on!

I finally chatted with Lesley last night (conference with Ally) - it was so good to finally talk to her - it has been so long!!!

My son's allergies were acting up - my husband doesn't believe me that he has allergies - but when cold/cough medicine doesn't stop his cough but Claritan does - um what does that tell you???

God, I am so tired!! Does Gonal-f make you tired???? I feel like I am going to fall asleep at the keyboard!

I hope everyone is doing well - Jamie - I am praying that the damn cyst is gone at your next appointment!

Have a good one everybody!

Am I crazy????

I must be fucking insane....seriously fucking insane....have the last two years not taught me anything?????
I am sitting here at work analyzing every little twinge because I want my fucking AF to arrive so I can go for my baseline tomorrow and start my injections tomorrow night. I am fucking looking forward to starting the gonal-f because I am optimistic that it will work.

When I first started the IUI process, I told my husband that I wouldn't get pregnant until the 3rd cycle. Then - because I am an asshole - I did a facade.com "yes/no" prediction thing...my questions:
1. Will I be pregnant this cycle? Answer: No
2. Will I get pregnant next cycle? Answer: No
3. Will I get pregnant my 3rd cycle? Answer: yes


So of course, before even CD1 I have my hopes totally up for this cycle....stupid superstitious bullshit...I know it is....and I am cursing myself that I am getting my hopes up again - Jeez before the cycle even starts......What the hell is wrong with me??? Why am I letting myself do this to myself? I must be a total idiot - seriously. But I can't help it...I have this feeling that it is going to work this month.....please, please, please ladies....set me straight.....I don't want to be all fucked up on day 30 when it doesn't come out positive!!!!

Ok - enough ranting for me....I hope everyone has a nice Memorial Day Weekend!

Why?

Usually I can find a reason behind everything. I have always been the person to say "everythign for a reason" but there is no reason for Jennie losing her baby. This is such shit.

Please pray for Jennie, her family and friends. I cannot even imagine what they are going through right now.

Blood Test today

UPDATE: No surprises here - Big Fat Negative. Then to top it off they tried telling me that I couldn't start injectibles this month because of the timing - I wouldn't be able to get the training in time - the Plainview class was filled for tomorrow and the only other person that could train me was not in until Tuesday! They also said that it may take a few days to get pre-certification for the medication. Well ladies, you know me...I wasn't having it.....So basically, I am going to Rockville Center to get the training and I lit a fire underneath the nurse practitioner's ass to get the pre-cert done!

I will admit though that when I was talking about it with my husband - before I made the appointment for the training on Saturday -- I totally broke down..I hate to say it but this whole process is breaking me down. I am not sure how many cycles I will be able to take this for...if the injectibles don't work - I don't think I will be going forward at all. Injectibles will only get one shot I think - and then I have to be done.

Side note: I am on pins and needles waiting to here from Heather - someone needs some good fucking news!




Well, I went for my blood test today - what a waste of $20 - they should call me by 2pm to tell me to stop the Progesterone because I am shit out of luck again this month.

Really tired - had to stop into work this morning because I couldn't connect to my computer from home last night - see what happens when you take work home - you end up having to come in anyway.

Ally - I am so sorry that bitch showed up.
Lesley - I know you are hurting now, but I am glad that you sought help. I look forward to having you back.
Heather - O MY GOD - that is such wonderful wonderful news - I can't wait to hear how the blood tests go!
Jamie - Hope you are hanging in there - give us an update soon
Jess - I miss you! But your funny entries on your blog crack me up.
Chas - Hope you are doing ok - you haven't updated in a couple of days - thinking about you.
Stacia - I really hope you are doing ok - I am still thinking about you.
Heather M - I know the waiting is definately the worst part - I really hope this is your month
Liz - I hope you are feeling better today and that "hope" has found her way back to your house.
Jenna - I hope your counseling session went ok. Please let us know how you are doing.

I hope Jennie is doing ok - Ally please let her know I am thinking of her.

To everyone else that I have missed - I hope that you all get your BFP's soon - I want off that fucking Board! LOL

Have a good day everyone. I will update later to make the negative official. Bye.

As you will note....

I have taken down my ticker - I should have known it wouldn't work - that is what I fucking get for being optimistic. I took a test this morning - a first response early detection - 2 days before AF is due or 12dpo - BFN - a big fat MOCKING Negative - this fucking sucks. I sat on my bed this morning and looked at my husband - when he looked at me I just shook my head - he knew what I meant - "Nope, failed again! My fucking ovaries just aren't cooperating."

So this is it I think - I will be going on injectibles next cycle and if that doesn't work then I am done, finito, caput - I am done with this roller coaster ride - I will need to accept that another baby just isn't in the cards for us and have to believe that there is some plan behind why Joey can't have a brother or sister.

I am so tired today - I am tired of the letdowns, I am tired of the false hope - I am just tired of this whole process. It is like a slap in the face to have to keep using the suppositories right now when I know there is no reason for it - but I have to continue until my blood test on Thursday - another waste of a $20 copay - I hate this.

I pray that Heather gets some good news with her 3 beans - we need some light on the PW board - it is getting so depressing over there.

OK - I am out - I need to work, unfortunately.

For the Record....

Pregnancy Weekly SUCKS!!!!

Yes, I know there is a ticker

OK - so I am trying to think positive - I put a ticker up - maybe I am jinxing myself - but I have spent over two years telling myself that I wasn't pregnant - so this month I am going to tell myself that I am - maybe if I do everything different this month it will actually happen.

I am sure that I will be back in two weeks to remove the ticker - but I will try anything at this point.

Will you even see this???

Well, I am not sure if anyone will even be able to read this, considering my blog is all SCREWED!

To catch everyone up to date- I have finished my 2nd IUI cycle - I am now in the two week wait - I had one IUI on Thursday and another on Friday - I was a little crampier this cycle than last but I guess that makes up for how well I did on the increased Clomid dose - well mentally anyway - I still only produced one good follicle with the 100mg.

If this dose doesn't work than it is on to the injectibles for our final (or at least that is what I am saying right now)IUI cycle. I won't be moving on to IVF - it is just too expensive without a guarantee that it will work - I haven't inquired -but I am pretty sure that Vytra won't cover IVF- most insurances don't. It is a scary thought to think that I may be giving up this quest in another month - I am just praying that it works so I don't have to go through giving this up - I know it will be hard to accept but two and a half years, one miscarriage and 3 IUI's - I think it is time for me to throw in the towel. If I did not have Joey, I am sure I would feel different - but I have had the experience - I know what it is like to look into the eyes of my child - so I think if a 2nd baby is not in the cards for me - well then I will be ok - my son continues to amaze me every day - he is an incredible kid - I got so lucky!

Speaking of Joey - he is in the "why" phase now - which is driving me CRAZY - a simple question can last 15 minutes because everything is "but why?" I knew this stage was coming - and I was dreading it - it is as bad as I thought it would be!

He is also really starting to test the boundaries - he has thrown 3 temper tantrums in the last 3 weeks - which is NOT like my son - I had to take him out of McDonalds and out of circle time at Mommy and Me because of it - totally out of character for him - and I hope he gets it out of his system REAL quick - because it doesn't work at getting him what he wants!

I have to go to a shower for a 17 year old tomorrow -- any idea why I can't muster up the enthusiasm (sp?) for this party?

I saw my friend last night - we had dinner - she is also trying to get pg - has been working on it for about 10 months now - I think I am going to give her my monitor - I am not using it. She is awesome - so funny - I worked with her about 7 years ago in a pizzeria - we went a few years with only talking once in a while and then about 5 months ago we decided to make a point of meeting for dinner at least once a month - and we have been sticking to it - we missed April because it was really crazy - but we have been good. I think it is important to work on the few friendships I do have.

I hope everyone is doing well, it seems as if everyone has been pretty quiet lately.

Lesley - I know it seems frustrating for you but I am keeping the faith for you.
Ally - You better be pg this month - I hope your trip to San Antonio went ok.
Jess - Glad to have you back TTC! Good luck!
Chas - I was going to respond to your blog - but I am still thinking my advice over since it is such a delicate situation.
Jamie - It sounds like you are having a rough time - you are almost done re-setting and I can't wait to hear about how well the BCP worked for you!
Heather - Good luck with the transfer on Sunday - I will be thinking about you and praying for you!
Jenna - I know it is hard when it feels like noone remembers or understands about m/c - and unless they have experienced it they don't - try to stay positive - I'm thinking about you.
Heather M - Have you thought about going to Classmates.com to see about getting in touch with that friend? I didn't go to my 10 year - not enough time passed as far as I was concerned.


For Everyone else I am forgetting - I hope you all have a great day - good luck with the 2WW or the Ovulation Wait or the Baby dancing or the Cyst skrinage - whatever the case -